Have I lost emotional attachment due to memory loss?

Is this OCD?

I know the clutter stresses me and I can't handle any upset at all since I've been sick. Also I think if I die I want everything to be cleaned and organized.

You're asking "Should someone stop me?" lends allot of insight. Perhaps it means you should stop and look at what's going on and why (not to say clearing things is a bad idea..but just to look at this)

Is it OCD?

Could be. Need to know more about your illness, treatment, symptoms ect. to take a guess..and what you want to get rid of.

I can share that my son sufferes from an extreme case of LD and Bartonella that has caused significant infection in several areas of his brain, one of his problems has been OCD.

When he was shortly after beginning intensive therapy, (this was also there when he was pre-treatment) but, post intensive therapy as part of a Herxheimer..he was very ill physically, and despite that, spent an ENTIRE day tirelessly cleaning out every inch of his room..spontaneous obsession.

He put amost everything in bags and wanted it all thrown out, rearanged all furniture, pictures on the wall..bookshelves cleared.

..dissassembled his closet, throwing out everything in there, removing all hardwear and the doors..nails and screws, and made it into an alcove.

He cleaned all the walls, vacuumed..everything. This while in a state of severe illness, white as a sheet..weak..sweating..
but nothing could stop him. Major OCD episode.

Just an example of TBD induced OCD.

In his case, I took everything away that he wanted to throw out, and stored things of value downstairs in boxes. Later..he wanted some of the things back.

What kinds of things are you thinking of getting rid of?

Clutter is stressful..and maybe not a bad idea to clear it.

If you are unsure about whether the possessions should be gotten rid of, maybe you can choose to store them, and revisit that later.

Also..you could consider whether this is illness based..information that could help you figure out yout condition and/or treatment.

Hang in..and I think it is very healthy to ask questions and look at what's going on.

Sounds like a new look and fresh ideas are in....cool.

I have been there but had enough sense to tell my family and doctor so they could help me.

I am wondering if throwing things out is healthy or a symptom of the lyme. Guess it could be either.

I have been on treatment 18 months now. I have plateaued and not getting anywhere just yet. I am doing a Babs treatment just in case and already was treated for Bart. I am still disabled as I was quite sick in the beginning. We don't know how long I've had lyme. It's been 2 years exactly since the symptoms hit hard.

The story of your son sounds VERY familiar. I am trying to keep what my kids might find important but things just don't hold any attachment to me. They just drive me nuts.

My mom gives me stuff and it goes out the back door as quick as it comes in the front.

I'm afraid that when I 'snap out of it' I will wish I had all my things back.

The storage is a good idea but that is also driving me crazy and I am clearing out what's in storage.

I'll mention the symptom to my llmd and see what he thinks.

Would therapy help a disorder that is caused by lyme?

She goes to a psych..a great one..but still the OCD is overwhelming..Maybe it would be worse without meds..? I think the infection must be under control before we see great improvement.

For Mo, the next step is that the house is contaminated and he may not be willing to go out of his room..Our daughter will take another shower if she is forced to come into the main part of the house.

She takes a min. of 2 showers a day when she is sedentary..More if she does anything..4-5 towels are required for each one, since she puts the towels on the entire floor of the bathroom for fear she might get a germ there.

Bedroom is sterilized if anyone else walks in and it is standard to scrub and vacuum twice a day. Also now is having trouble eating any food that is from our house..

While I do not have a pig stye, I am not June Cleaver so anything out of place or cluttered, just feeds her fury..

She also can't be around her father. He is considered dirty..She will take all money he funnels her way..It is hard on him to deal with all of this.. Not that it is a party for me.

I am basically slaved to suicidal depression.

And the clutter with me is procrastination..I choose sleep instead of organizing when it comes between the two. I think it is exhausiton instead of lyme..But there are a couple that know some of my symptoms that are wondering if I will ever get tested...some day...

Gary, thanks for the advice. I will give my family a heads-up to help.

lymemomtooo, so sorry that you and your daughter are suffering in so many ways. I agree, lyme is hell. I am rejecting people in my life, too. Problem is they are the ones I love the most.

Unfortunately I'm not getting rid of anything of value to anyone else (I don't have anything of any value to anyone else). Just sentimental stuff that all of a sudden means nothing. The problem is I know it SHOULD mean something, just doesn't

Well just in case I will have hubby and kids go through my discard pile to make sure I'm not throwing their things away.

MADDOG, guess we need a happy medium of keeping and throwing away. Problem is, lyme doesn't seem to have any happy meduims, just extremes.

You've all been very helpful as I try to sort things out (literally).