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Hi everyone....it's been a while....still hanging on.....have gone through a lot in the last year.....but I'm still here.....struggling again ...this time I think my hormones are giving me grief.....headaches...just a bunch of stuff....just needed to talk with someone who understands.....
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Hey there, I know how you feel. I recently came back to lymenet too after a few months away. It seems I had been in remission a while. Boy did it feel great to feel SOMEwhat normal a little while, walk without the walker and so much pain. DO normal stuff, get back to work..but, it is back. I will go to LLMD tomorrow to get my PCR results and see what she wants to do...I'm really nervous.. Also, I signed up for a presentation about my job and will be traveling out of town for that this week too (my LLMD is 3 hours away!) It's hard to find support out there in the real world where people don't have a clue what's it's like to battle this awful disease. Even what's it's like to make it through a normal day, much less these extra events! BUT, I had signed up for all this BEFORE the relapse set in, so I'll give it my best.! I know you can hang too, believe me! Yes, it's frustrating and you want to scream out..well just do it, scream out if you need to. we all understand, we've been there.
We feel your pain. I wish I could take it away for you, really I do, and I would. we will make it, we are strong, it's made us that way. Hang in, share what you need to. Melinda
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Thank you....I will try and hang on....it just seems that this will never end...I keep thinking I'm better....and the next thing I know I'm back fighting this again.....but I do have to say I'm much better than I was when I first started....I can sleep better at night....and my really bad headaches have seem to come near as often..... I hate fighting this depression.....that is so hard to fight.... Posts: 160 | From IN | Registered: Nov 2001
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yes, depression is one of the hardest symptoms to deal with. I haven't been hit REALLY hard with it in a while. The physical things have been the hardest for me the last 2 years.
However, back a few years ago, the depression was so bad I was suicidal for many months. Honestly, if not for my daughter I think I would have done something about it. I couldn't stand the thought of her being left with her dad or my parents.. either.
Back then I had no idea it was lyme. My previous LLMD stated that the reason anti-depressants never worked too well for me was that once the receptor site is blocked by the infection it is blocked and no medicine can get through, so without moving it, you're stuck.
Hope you feel better soon and the ole infection will move on to somewhere else. you know, at least if it's gotta bug us it could let up on the same spot once in a while! Melinda ps. it seems to take years to shift sometimes!
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