I know I'm herxing my Biaxin was upped. So I told my husband I might be sick for a few days and that I would get thru it. I said I didn't care how sick I got because it will kill the bacteria.

So after eating half my dinner I started taking the meds and I just didn't want to. I took them and started crying. I'm afraid of the herx.

My husband who I know has Lyme but won't seek treatment.(had a bullseye rash) STUPID STUPID STUPID.

I turned to him and said soon you'll be suffering like this because your not on antibiotics.

Boy am I depressed, miserable and worried. Waaaa waa waa all the home.

Heather

I am so sorry that you are having such a tough time right now.

It just isn't fair that the cure usually makes us feel worse, is it?

When I cry, and believe me, it has been a river at times, I try to remember that Bb has been detected in tears...so, after the flood, I feel as if I have detoxed somehow.

Please go easy on yourself, and remember that we have all been there...

Hoping this herx passes soon,
Melanie

Sorry you are feeling so rotten. That Biaxin sounds like tough stuff. Haven't been on it yet. I put off increasing my mino dose, even though I knew I was supposed to, because I was also afraid of the herx. But here I am, and I am getting through it. You will too!!! You can do it!

My husband nearly had to force me to take my meds one day. It's ok to cry. I feel better after I cry. I am fairly new here, but I have recently learned it helps me when I am herxing to take hot baths and drink extra water and sleep. I try to visualize those little boogers dying and it seems to help. It also helps if someone can be with you or help distract you. The other night I felt really rotten and my hubby popped in a DVD. It was a great comedy and I felt as if my liver were exploding as I was laughing so hard. Trust me, it had been a long time since I had laughed.

Wish your husband would get treatment. Is it fear or denial?

They replaced the bottles free of charge,and I did manage to poor some out of the plastic bags and filter the stuff through a coffie filter,to get the glass out.

Lyme works on the brain and sometimes we just cry. It is ok to do that,and probably helps. MADDOG

Don't forget to back off the meds if things get too severe. We don't want you in the hospital!

When the herx gets really bad, might be a good idea to check in with the LLMD.
Some drs ease back on the meds for a time if the herx is too much.

When the herx is really strong, I think it's best to err on the side of caution & call the dr's office.

Sorry you're having such a rough time.
Knowing your husband had the bull's eye rash has to be adding to your stress level.

How long since he had the rash?

Tell him that Lyme is like a bad tooth....you
have to deal with it sooner or later.
The longer you wait, the more complicated it gets.
Also, each person's reaction to treatment can be different. He may not herx as strongly as you have. It's just an unknown.

One thing is for sure -
If he had the bull's eye rash, he won't get rid of the bacteria without adequate antibiotics.

You can cry and wail all you want here and no one will laugh at you or call you a big baby...

My husband has lyme but is really in denial about how it affects him....sigh....that's ok as long as he takes the abx. He doesn't want me to talk about the "L" word. (I'm rolling eyes and sighing right now)

God Bless...

Hang in there honey...

It will get better..
I am coming out of my slump and I am feeling more like myself everyday..

We're here for you, remember that

I am totally with you--if someone hasn't had this disease they have no idea how much courage it takes to take the medicine.

I took my meds on Tuesday and gave the kids theirs on Friday and there was some left over so I just downed it...

I slept till 3:00 on Saturday! It flat knocked me on my bottom!

My little boy always cries and it makes him so mad because he doesn't know why he is crying. We have all had a good cry with this illness.

The fact that you are crying may just simply be crying and not related to a herx. This whole Lyme ordeal is enough to put anybody out on the funny farm, so to me, herx or not, crying is very much a part of this.

We certainly have lots to cry about. Our lives have been turned upside down and we have had to live differently and not in a way we have freely chosen. So there is bound to be anger and tears. I went thru a period where I felt more angry - not lyme rage just short tempered and irritable. In talking this over with my llmd, he didn't really look at it as the actual disease or a herx causing it, but rather the situation I've been placed in - he in essence said of course I'd be angry - my life has been seriously disrupted for years - it's only normal.....

As the others have said, let the tears flow - they are cathartic. I know you won't, but please don't even think about stopping taking meds without consulting with your doc, unless they seriously disagree with you or are not working.....it just gives those darn buggers an opening to keep attacking!

I actually worked today. Haven't worked in two weeks. I plan to work tommorrow and weds.

We'll see what happens.

Thanks again,
Heather

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Originally posted by HEATHERKISS:

P.S. You are all big babies!!!!!

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Hope you are doing better...Please hang in there..I have been on abx for over a year now and never thought I would get through the herxing..but I did and it gets better..

I did a lot of crying...because I thought it would never end..honestly, it was horrible but I am already forgetting how horrible it was since I have been able to resume a normal life again..

I left work and grad school last May and I am finally ready to start my life again..I spent a good year just trying to get strong enough to enjoy life and it is finally happening!!1

Please hang in there..

I worked today(7 hours if you include the driving). I'm not going to work tommorrow. Too achey.

This morning, while trying to get out of bed, I realized that my goal today, and every day with Lyme, is just to get through the day.

It can be terribly depressing to know that the highlight of the day will be crawling back in bed.

I've been on IVs now for 6 weeks and today is the worst day so far.

Sorry to piggyback on your post here, but I feel a lot like you must...