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Does Lyme ever make you feel Dumb. I mean seriously. I can't even spell correctly anymore.
It is hard to have a conversation with people without having to ask them to remind me what I was talking about.
It seems so hard to wrap my Brain around certain things that would have seem simple in the past.
I go into as grocerie store and get so discombabled even if I have list before me.
I am a fairly bright and people have told me I am intelligent woman. Even if I am a bit Eccentric and Flakey. LOL
No matter what I looked like or what people thought of me I could alway fall back on the fact that I had a sharp mind.
I have always been an activist of some kind or another and I would love to do more for The Lyme Movement.
Its just hard to wrap my mind around it all. I made a deal with the Powers that Be, when I was finally diagnosed with this.
If I got this disease for a reason. Because I am a B*tch & have a big mouth & am not afraid to open it.
If they want me to use it to get some attention for this miserable disease. Or to reach out to as many people as I can. Then they came to the right person.
The deal is they have to help make me feel good again so that I can have the stregnth, energy, and Brain capacity to do it.
I sometimes wonder if that is too much to ask.
I know there are lessons in all of this, and it has given me a few gifts. That I am greatful for. There is probably alot more to learn.
I wonder if one of them is to learn to not be afraid to live life. I mean truly live life, and not take every day things for granted.
Like having loads of energy even if you just use it to clean your house.
Or to be able to stand outside in the Sun light. Without getting Dizzy, Nauseated, and having the onset of a migraine.
To be able to have a normal day and not constantly be interupted. Having to know which pill to take. At what time, and weather to take it with food or not.
Simply to be able to play with your kids any time they want without having to tell them you can't right now because mommy doesn't feel good or is too tired.
To live Life as Succulently and Wild as you can. With no regrets. Just with love & light & all that makes you happy.
An Author I love named SARK wrote a book called Succulent Wild Woman. Its about living your life to the fullest.
Eating Mangos naked in the moonlight. Why not I have Insomnia anyway. Might as well do something entertaining.
I can't eat Mangos too much natural sugar. Damn Candida.
I feel like I have lost myself. I forget the kind of person I used to be. I miss the person I use to be and the person I wanted to become.
It is not just the kind of losing of yourself that we get when we Marry or have children.
Because as a Lymie you lose so much more of yourself then ever thought possible. You all know what I mean.
I am weeping just writing this. Yet I need sarcasm to prevent me from crying. Then again it could just be the Mepron.
As a fellow Lymie friend Jif told me. Damn this land of Zepron (New name For Zith, Mepron users) We are now dubbed Zepronites.
Then again it helps us find ourselves in a way we might never have otherwise. What a way to have to do that though. I really don't know the answer.
Thanks for listening to me rant though. Many Blessings to you all.
Love & Light, Yemaya Posts: 188 | From NM | Registered: Feb 2006
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Does Lyme ever make me feel dumb??? you ask.
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I mean seriously. I can't even spell correctly anymore. ![[Big Grin]](biggrin.gif)
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I can't eat Mangos too much natural sugar. Damn Candida. ![[loco]](graemlins/loco.gif)
Many Blessings to you all.![[group hug]](graemlins/grouphug.gif)
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