troutscout
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That's a question I asked my business associates today in my daily e-mail. Yep.....is your life experience making you better? Or Have you chosen to go the easy route and just sit back and blabber about how bad it is for you...how bitter you are about it all.
Here's what I mean....are you taking REAL ACTION with the info you learn on this website...or are you just sitting back in your easy chair saying what you've learned?
If we were talking sports.....are you wanted to improve your batting average...would you read manuals and and listen to instruction all day long and expect your results to improve?
Or, would you step up into the batters box and actually apply what you've learned
That's what I'm talking 'bout. Putting your knowledge in action!!!!
DFon't become bitter because of what life has done to you...become better as a person and apply the experience to build a better...stronger you
But...Trout I'm bed ridden! Take an extra step...use the phone more..reach out...get involved. Set a Goal....write down the steps you must take to meet it...and FOCUS
Don't let life beat you down...you cna and you will be the better person because of this disease!!!
I beleive in you...WE beleive in YOU. So....feel the power of us fellow Lymies...go out there...with a burning desire in your heart to overcome that which life has dealt you!!!
By Fighting This Disease- Though Visualizing The End Result and Actually Accepting that You WILL WIN....You Will Gain More Than you Can EVER Imagine.
So I Ask You Again. Are YOU Bitter....or Better!
Go Get 'Em Tiger!!!
Trout
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Dear Trout,
I have to say I am better. That's not to say that I don't hate this disease and co-infections,
but am prepared to educate myself as well as others about it.
I feel as if that is my mission, or my "job" as it were. A specific responsibility.
My neighbor was correctly dx with Lyme because I have it, other neighbors are asking and showing symptoms.....
I may not be able to prevent Lyme from happening, but I can prevent the frustration of trying to get dx. for someone else.
Bitterness is a waste of energy for me.
Hugs,
Geneal
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Thanks troutscout! loved your post, just what I needed to read today. A good boost.
Was bitter this morning at the duck who told me I had a spider bite when I went in 9 years ago with a bulls-eye rash. This duck is one of the IDSA lyme "experts." I've had years of suffering since then.
But I agree with you -- we need to look forward! Just hope I get my brain back with my health along the way!
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Absolutley wonderful stuff...let's keep it rolling!!!!
I can say that in my education with Lyme that I have helped no less than 23. (THEY CAME TO ME FOR HELP WITH THEIR FIBROMYALGIA WITH MY PRODUCT)
So....I say no matter what it takes...your work....your church...your Lyme....use that tool to YOUR advantage.
Good Luck!!!!
Trout
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I personally enjoy the Lyme rally's the most. Gives me a good opportunity to try and become a TV star. I try to position myself right behind the speakers so I'll get in the pictures.
Mostly I do it to hang out with other Lyme Buddies, and because I'm a throw back from the 60's. Rallys and Protests take me back to my youth.
I always feel better-but wonder why there aren't more sickos there. I still wear my lyme green tee shirt with the magic marker hand drawn tick on it in public that says "Lyme Disease is a Big Problem" It's a big tick, by the way.
I was just thinking today I should write "Ask me About Lyme Disease " on the white tube sock I wear to cover the IV line. I also thought about trying to find a lime green tube sock, but then people would just assume it's a fashion statement.
I told my daughter I wrote to Oprah about our story. She just shook her head and said "And I suppose you went off on one of your Lyme Tangents!" I told her "I get no respect-and neither does Lyme."
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I'll surely get better, physically, mentally, and spiritually
Still remember the old days when I was 100% physically healthy and financially worry-free, how unhappy I still was about minor things in life.
This disease and the fight process difinitely taught me a lot more than I could have imagined!
I haven't yet labeled myself as a lymie at work, but I'm prepared once I get cured (or in stable remission), I'll come out and educate my collegues for sure. I strongly believe I won't be the only person in this area who gets bit by infectious bugs in a life time.
Blessings~
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I'm pretty bitter, because I was better off 4 months ago before taking medicines. I was taking care of myself, and now I can't sit upright most of the time without feeling like I'm going to collapse and pass out.
Oh, and I can't take a single medicine(including nasal sprays) all of a sudden without my body going into shock for days(weeks to get over) and ending up in ER. This after taking large amounts of medicine for 2 months... why did this happen overnight?
Try putting a positive spin on this.
And research I've seen shows that there are no benefits to positive thinking when it comes overcoming an illness, besides being happier.
I'm a realist, and I think rationally. The reality of the matter is I'm f'd, because I can't even take medicine to treat, and I can't get out of bed most of the time(not to even go to doctor)..., and my mother and brother have to take care of me. I can only do simple excercises, or get on here during the moments I feel better. My $5,000/month bills(not even including medical) is mounting up too.
Yeah, treatment sure has helped out my life.
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I'm with Dana. I miss my old energy and financial security. I think of how many days in life I've missed in bed. None us have that many to waste unless we want to.
I wouldn't say I'm bitter....more angry at circumstances. Some days I just go with the flow and try to laugh at something.
I don't get angry at people...just the medical and pharma industries and former employers who let me down.
I wouldn't wish this on anyone. Well, maybe a few key folks who have done me wrong medically.
Just so they know what we are up against.
I do try to stay happy. Not sure if I'm better for it. I think that is society pressure telling us to "deal with it and pretend".
Just my opinion.
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Hey there my friend,
It is wonderful to see you, and to see you still fighting for change!
Keep planting those seeds of encouragement...you just never know what may spring forth.
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I'm like Dana,
Waffle between bitter and better,with lots of BUTTER dripping on the sides.
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Thank you Trout!
I am better but sicker than I used to be.
Sometimes I get angrier than others but I am better in other ways. I've learned so much and am putting pieces togehter all the time. In my own ways, many of them small, have helped a few... one way or another.
Neither am I finished... I am finally, after long waiting, on my way.
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quote:Originally posted by Geneal: I may not be able to prevent Lyme from happening, but I can prevent the frustration of trying to get dx. for someone else.
Bitterness is a waste of energy for me.
Yep. I agree. I never had a chance to be treated "early"....kind of got lost in the shuffle for well over 40 yrs.
Now, I'm on my way to a wonderful life!! And I'm with you, Trout....I LOVE telling others about Lyme disease, fibromyalgia, etc and something that will help them!
Kendrick....I got WAY WORSE for the first two years of treatment. Hang in there!!
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Hey Trout, Is this mangosteen stuff your new business?
you said: "I can say that in my education with Lyme that I have helped no less than 23. (THEY CAME TO ME FOR HELP WITH THEIR FIBROMYALGIA WITH MY PRODUCT)"
You don't say what your PRODUCT is.
You say you are giving pep talks to your business associates. Are they mangosteen sales people?
Sorry, but no disease can make me a better person. I refuse to make an inspiration of a disease. Bitter is not the opposite of better. Catchy phrasing, but that is what makes it sound fishy.(pun intended, Trout).
When people are ill, the last thing you want to do is make them feel guilty that they are not doing enough and that they are not better people.
As I recall, you have tried lots of different things and herbs etc. and said they were the best. Now this.
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Great Stuff from All of you!!!!!
Kendrick...I used to react to EVERYTHING and had to live in a cement block room for 5 months....away from everyone.
Give it time my friend...give it time.
Ann-Oh....always the refreshing pessimist I see...too bad. I didn't mention my business in my post because I wasn't looking to do business with anyone here. BVut to answer your questions...or shall I say judgemental remarks... 1)No...this Mangosteen is NOT a NEW business for me...been at that for almost 3 years 2)I've tried alot of things...yes...and found which ones work for me and which ones don't...thank you 3)Is the Mangosteen my latest business venture...no...I am now a professional speaker...I spread my story and the horrors of Lyme Disease....tell ALL of the things we Lymies go thru (I'm quite graphic)...In fact people have left the room due to the pain THEY feel when I describe it....and then I do the unthinkable...I tell how beleiving in God and just going all flat out to win...despite all of the hardships...my wife's cancer...the kids Lyme...our moldy house...and then the bankruptcy...the landlords that stole our money and the day we had nothing but one set of clothes and only a set of dishes...to where I am today. I do it all through a Christian format currently in development with my Pastor...a former stand up comedian and librarian
Yes Ann-Oh....I'm just out to screw the next guy...your right. I have no postive character...no integrity...no back bone
the fact that I speak at the monthly and quarterly meetings of Two Different State oprganizations for Lyme.....andd that I just headed the Marketing Campaign for a Cancer Benefit my wife and I helped put on for a Nurse she works with who has end stage cancer and 4 young children (Raising over $45,000 in one nite)
Only proves that I am a complete sh*t.
yeah...I haven't grown any from my travails with Lyme...still selfish enough to know that I feel best about myself when I serve others.
Yeah Ann-Oh
You are right.
I'm a poop.
To the rest of you...TRY if you can to imagine a better day. i've been down...and may be next week...but today I am a champion...FOR YOU!!!
Trout
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Dear Trout,
After reading the post from Ann, I felt that maybe I should clarify the "better" part or what you may call the "bitter-sweet".
I have not chosen all of the unfortunate events that have happened so far in my life.
I didn't choose Hurricane Katrina or losing my house.
I certainly didn't Choose Lyme.
However, I do choose not to be "victimized" by either event, no matter how catastrophic each has been in my life.
If all that I am able to do is help someone else get the right treatment or right diagnosis, then hopefully this cycle continues.
I didn't want anyone to think that I am "sweetly" satisfied that I have Lyme and co-infections.
However, I choose to take the information that I have learned (and am still learning every day) and share it with others.
I can't change what I have or what I am going through right now, but ignorance is not bliss when it comes to Lyme.
I couldn't have sent the tornado that took my house in a different direction either.
I guess you could say that I am a fighter and not a quitter, although some days it is hard.
Thank God for Lymenet and it's members, my faith, and my committment to getting better.
I think that your message is a positive one.
I, for one, really appreciated it.
Hugs,
Geneal
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When we lean on the shoulders of others...we are strengthened by their compassion.
Let us not forget that we must also walk thru our own valley of despair...and then chose to do with ourselves as we can...with what strength we have.
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For those that get the message hear...I beleive strongly that we must Greibe that which we have lost..and as the educated say...it takes seven years to grieve...the death of a loved one, a divorce or the lifestyle that we once enjoyed BEFORE Lyme.
I greived daily...and still do...just as Christopher Reeve allowed himself every monrning upon awakening.
We MUST greive...and then make the rest of our day the best that we can.
THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU IF FEEL DOWN WHEN YOU READ THIS!!!!!
You have every right to feel bad....but let us....those that feel good...lift your spirits.
God Bless,
trout
PS...Ann...I never said that EVERY thing I tried was the best...I objectively reported my results to whom ever wanted to hear them.
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I lost 43 years to this stupid disease. Was I mad when I found out the truth? Yes I was mad. Just like I was mad when my husband walked out on me.
But when my husband walked out on me I went to a class to get better. Did it work? YES! Instantly! I walked out of that class the first night I knew how lucky I was. I seen people who had been stuck for three or four years. They were either mad or depressed or something else.
I had passed threw all of the stages and was moving in a possitive direction. I just didn't realize how good I was doing until I seen others in the same situation and how it afected them.
So when I found out about lyme after 43 years, I got a little mad. I sat back by myself and did some thinking and knew I had two choices.
I could get mad and probably make myself even more sick, or I could work at getting better and when I am ready I will do what I can to help as many people as possible avoid losing 43 years years of their life like I did.
I once told someone I was going to send the gal who my husband left with a "Thank You" card. They took it all wrong and said you are so bitter. No, I wasn't bitter I was Happy to finally have peace in my life.
Many of you are probably not ready for Trouts possitive thinking and I understand but please just let it give you hope as that is what will get your thru until tomorrow.
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Better all in all But tired of herx's
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Ps thanks for caring Trout
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Trout, I had no idea you would interpret my remarks the way you did. I did not say or imply what you gathered from my words. I am not a pessimist, just looking for the truth and fairness. Some of your remarks and your mention of business associates and your PRODUCT and the mangosteen website could lead one to believe you were advertising. I wish you the best as a professional inspirational speaker. [ you wrote] [quote] I do it all through a Christian format currently in development with my Pastor...a former stand up comedian and librarian
Yes Ann-Oh....I'm just out to screw the next guy...your right. I have no postive character...no integrity...no back bone
the fact that I speak at the monthly and quarterly meetings of Two Different State oprganizations for Lyme.....andd that I just headed the Marketing Campaign for a Cancer Benefit my wife and I helped put on for a Nurse she works with who has end stage cancer and 4 young children (Raising over $45,000 in one nite)
Only proves that I am a complete sh*t.
yeah...I haven't grown any from my travails with Lyme...still selfish enough to know that I feel best about myself when I serve others.
Yeah Ann-Oh
You are right.
I'm a poop.
To the rest of you...TRY if you can to imagine a better day. i've been down...and may be next week...but today I am a champion...FOR YOU!!!
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A friend sent me this in an e-mail today & thought I would relay it here.
I do wish I could get to this transcendental place someday.
Somedays I seem to be stuck in the anger, dissapointment, why me stage. But I do try on a daily basis to try to remain positive. Somedays are easier than others:
From my Grandfather's Blessings, by Rachel Naomi Remen:
...disappointment and loss are part of every life. Many times we can put such things behind us and get on with the rest of our lives.
But not everything is amenable to this approach. Some things are too big or too deep to do this, and we will have to leave important parts of ourselves behind if we treat them this way.
These are the places where wisdom begins to grow in us. It begins with suffering that we do not avoid or rationalize or put behind us.
It starts with the realization that our loss, whatever it is has become a aprt of us and has altered our lives so profoundly that we cannot go back to the way it was before.
Something in us can transform such suffering into wisdom. The process of turning pain into wisdom often looks like a sorting process. First we experience everything.
Then one by one we let things go, the anger, the blame, and the sense of injustice, and finally even the pain itself, untill all we have left is a deeper sense of the value of life and greater capacity to live it...
Disease is at various times brutal. lonely. constricting, and terrifying. But the life in us may be stronger than all that and free us even from which we must endure..."
* not sure I agree with everything in this excerpt. I can not let go of everything & except my lot. This keeps me fighting, always to get back to the point of qulaity of life. I can not let go yet.
Maybe I am stronger inside now to face life? After 20 of suffering life with lyme maybe I think some days I can get threw just about anything.
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Dana, that's a keeper! And you're right....We can tackle just about anything now.
You can let go and still have all the fight you need in you to get well. It will not diminish your ability to fight!
If we clutter our minds with negative stuff, we have no room left for the positive. Thinking negatively or positively is a habit. Choose the good one!!
I hope you have a blessed day!
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Right on Dana!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Exactly Tutu.
That's what I'm talking about!!!
Yahoo.
Trout
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I hope I'm posting in the right place. I wanted to say thanks for the encouraging words and the boost to keep fighting. I'll take all the positive I can get.
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Tincup,,,sure you didnt forget just one???
Trout,
I had a whole LONG pm all typed out,one finger at a time and hit the send button,,,and whammo your mail box was full and lost whole thing.
Question of how this works---Is there a way to 'save' such things???
Almost forgot to say,,,Nice post Trout!!!
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That's what we are all about....keeping the chin up...and our hearts full of fire.
Thanks for the replies!!!
Trout
Ps...Don....I emptied it.
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I remeber being mad when I started finding out the truth about this illness 7 years ago. That didn't last long because it was a waste of energy. Then 5 yrs ago I realized I'm in charge here. I used that energy looking for things that might help me and abx were failing me.
I wasn't a patient person before lyme. I've changed. Patience, looking outside the box and a fighting (not flight) attitude has made a great deal of difference.
This illness is more than a physical problem. It's an emotional, mental and spirit attitude that helps.
Pam
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Having this now for 10 1/2 years I can say I'm neither bitter or better for having the experience.
What I am is different from before.
What I was before being sick wasn't bad, so saying I'm better now would be insulting to who I was previously.
My life has had many challenges and I look at lyme as just another challenge I can either overcome or let overcome me.
Right now I am in a good cycle and I am trying to make the most of it. When things are looking up it is easy to be positive. It is when things are looking down that it is hard to be positive.
I think Map1131 is correct. Mental and spiritual aspects of your personality should be encouraged as much as possible. You should try to understand yourself and all you are going through to the best of your ability so you can better deal with the changes.
My life has been forever changed and whether or not it is better, who knows? As a matter of fact it isn't even important to me. What is important to me is living my present life to the fullest.
It is what I do with the good times that pull me through the rough times. I'd like to say I have this beat but that would be foolish as I've had four relapses now.
One thing I am certain of is lyme has allowed me to meet some interesting characters and one special angel.
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I told a nurse the other day....while taking my weekly blood samples from my 9 month old PICC line.....that I have learned that no matter life throws at me...there is a pot of gold at the other end of each trail I have to travel.
However, it is up to me to decide what that pot represents....my pot of gold in this has been my renewed ability to see that I CAN and WILL change lives by touching them...when I can.
If my health is down...I must be unselfish enough to act in a selfish manner (self preservation) but focusing on getting back in peak form.
Why? My children have this damn disease and I fI can't find my way out of this. I fear mostly for them....what will become of them without me to watch over them.
Trout
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Well I am definitely not bitter but I don't know if I am really ``better''.
I would say it has given me insights that I might not have had otherwise.
If you are asking if it has had an influence on who I am ... of course.
Even though being sick has sucked if I was given the choice to not have gone through all of this junk since age 10,
I don't think I would take it. I grew up to be the me I am because of everything I experienced in my life.
I like who I grew up to be. Who I am I wouldn't change but what I am (sick) needs a lot of work
The fatigue is still very debilitating and has been for years...
Conserving energy for the things I need to do
and hopefully once and awhile the things I want to do (my artwork) is a big thing with me.
So I have learned to let go a lot better than I did before getting sicker.
Being mad at whatever for how much I suffer or how much I lost doesn't do me any good.
Anger takes a heck of a lot of energy -
and the people who are responsible for letting me stay sick or didn't treat me right in a variety of ways -
They just aren't worthy of my energy for me to be angry at them.
And this disease has taken too much already... I sure am not going to give it anything else.
This "letting go" included forgiving myself -
for all the little choices I made that got me into sickness severe enough to disable me.
(Not knowing that ticks can carry disease, decision to stop drs, or listen to this or that ding dong dr...etc)
For me life is a combination of choice and chance. I try to make choices towards regaining my health/ ability to work/ ability to have a life ect...
And cope with the outcomes of Chance.
I have been sick since I was ten and disabled since 23 and now I am 30....
And trout you are so right about needing to grieve.
When I first was disabled and everytime I got sicker after that... I lost so much ..
not just in terms of what I could do but this disease can take a huge toll on your identity...
It can demolish it if it wishes.
I think being so sick since 23 and coming thru it each time has given me greater confidence in myself.
After each time I started getting better (could walk again and stuff) I thought - ``well that sucked. I NEVER could do that again''
But when I got that sick again, I made it thru it again.
And I know as much as it may suck whatever this disease throws at me I will somehow make it thru ( with help from my dr).
So I dont know if I am better - and after all this time disabled I still may be diluted and distilled...
but I am still alive and kicking (metaphorically of course ... kicking would hurt alot and exhaust me fast )
and I have hope and faith that I will get well enough to live my life again - have a teaching carreer , work on my art and just LIVE.
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I keep waiting until my head is clear enough to answer this post.
But, I'll make due for now.
I am hoping that I will be a better person because of it.
But, I must say I can't ever recall so many different thoughts and feelings since I came downwith this.
Lately, it has been tears. I never know where they are going to come from and most of the time why.
While at the dog park yesterday, I met a girl named Ireland. I am guessing she was around 10 years old.
She is a special ed student. Her mom thought she was interested in me because I was in a wheel chair and she has a friend in school that is in a wheel chair.
I had a few special ed classes in college while training to become a teacher. I also worked with a few special ed students while working with the students who are deaf...which was my major.
I don't know why the tears came on my way home from the dog park. Thoughts come in and out of my brain and I can't recall them.
I guess time will tell if I am becoming a better person because of this.
I just know for now, I am able to do so much more than I was for the past years. But, I still have a long way to go and am still very limited on what I can do.
I think the relationship wise, I am really cautious of whom I am around. Like a special ed student, I need to keep it simple.
I also need to be around positive people. So, I am getting better at not being around bitter.
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Kam....
I have sat back and seen what you have done for others..time and time again.
Maybe you were (or all of us for that fact) just needed something to push us in a direction that would help us impact more lives in such a challenging yet deeply touching way...just like you do.
You are a wonderful lady.....and tough as nails.
Trout
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kam
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Wow. Thank you. Looking over shoulder.is he talking about me?? Nice to be encouraged ...especially lately when I have been feeling discouraged.
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troutscout
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The Package A young man was getting ready to graduate from college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted.
As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation, his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son,and told him how much he loved him.
He handed his son a beautifully wrapped gift box.
Curious, but somewhat disappointed, the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible, with the young man's name embossed in gold.
Angrily, he raised his voice to his father and said, "With all your money, you give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the Bible.
Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old and thought perhaps he should go to him.
He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of things.
When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search through his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. His father had carefully underlined a verse:
Matthew 7:11, "And if ye, being evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Heavenly father which is in heaven, give to those who ask Him?"
As he read those words, a car key dropped from the back of the Bible.
It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words...
PAID IN FULL.
How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?
Trout
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treepatrol
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I just got reminded of this very thing over the weekend Trout. God has a way of opening eyes God Bless and lets all remember easter this year for what it represents. Life & Death & Burial & Resurrection.
The Grace of God & The Passover Lamb
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just don
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A truly wonderful story trout,
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troutscout
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Here's some good stuff also.
I have met in the past year people that have been bed ridden for years, or just plain ole beyond help ill with evrything....and some of them had given up....others kept fighting, their stories are so compelling...so strong, why?
They found a way to overcome their problem!!!!
These were people with Cancer, Fibromyalgia, Scleroderma, COPD......some found God, some Rife, others found Botanicals helped....but they found something. That's right...they found it.
Some were at the end of their rope......ready for death and praying for it to come.
But they dug in...and now they spread the goods news to everyone they meet...either thru testimonials or just plain ole lookin'g good they don't care if the others think they are crazy...neither would I.
Why? Heck, the nay-sayers were also the ones that turned on them when they were sickest.
But guess who won out in the end.
Revenge...is a dish best served cold.
Good Luck!!!!!!!!!
Trout
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