But, before closing my topic in medical someone could have at least ansered my last MEDICAL questions in the post.
Also, for those who have pushed me, I found someone to talk to. I told her everything last night and it feels great to have someone who understands. She herself has fibromyalgia so we were very understanding of each other.
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Glad to have you here- we need you in Gen Support*!*) Some days there are only 4 or 5 postings here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It will be nice to read on your ongoing stuff here. I do hope you get to an LLMD soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Best wishes, Sarah
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Thanks, I know not many people come here so maybe my story will attract people here! That's makes me feel good!
The appt. was ok. We sat waiting way to long. He was a nice guy though. He didn't really say much, but he agrees I need the echo which I will be getting May 21st in Huntsville. I have to go that far just for it.
He said they couldn't do it here because I am 15. He said they got a letter saying anyone over 15 had to go somewhere else because of lawyers or something but they were still sneeking some in, but he said they got another letter saying NO more. So...Huntsville again for something so small.
And he said there wasn't a 'true' Ped. Rheumy in Birmingham so I have to go Nashville to Vanderbilt to see one there. Which I think is a waste of time, but it could also be good because it is a lot biger than anything we have here and they may no more. But still...
We are getting ALL of my records together so all of my doctors share everything. And we are taking all of them with us and everything. We asked about Lyme and he was shocked they havn't thought to test me for it yet.
He said they should've so he did. They said they had to send it off and I would know in a few days or so. So....but, I don't expect anything from it.
He listened for a murmur and said he couldn't here one so that's good.
But, we talked for a long time and told him everything so I felt like I got the message out there.
But, the most important thing, was talking to my neighbor last night. She is the R.N I was telling about a long time ago and I started by saying I was going today and kind of pushed her into listening and I just let it out and told her everything. And she was really interested.
And she has Fibro so...she would ask me stuff and I could relate so well. She talked about good days and bad, sleep, concentration, depression, and everything and I told her...WOW! That is all me!
And she really understands exactly what I am going through and I understand her more to. I used to think she was kind of weird. She isn't married and she is probably in her late 40's or so(not sure) and she lives alone and keeps to herself and goes to work, but she always acted kind of strange, but last night I felt like I really knew her.
Because she talked about not being able to plan ahead, because we never know how we will feel and stuff and I SO understand. It was amazing. I felt like I could just say anything because she was so understanding.
And we agreed about everything regarding my medical issues now. So, it felt really great to be able to talk to her about it. Since she is the only one I have talked to in person.
But, it really was amazing. We talked about school and college and everything and she understood what I meant.
I felt really bonded with her. I was so shocked at how alike we are and how much she could understand and that I am not the only one and she goes through what I do. But, she said it never took her 2 years to get a diagnosis.
But, she didn't say if she takes meds for it and if they help or if she is better so...I didn't to push her to much. But, I did ask her stuff and she asked me stuff. She gave me advice for it and it helped a lot.
She is a nurse and she said you have to push them. You have to speak up and ask everything and do whatever you have to. And I did today.
He knew everything except on his way out I asked about the splinter hemorrages and he said he was stumped! Even I know about them and he didn't!
She agree it was sad that I know more than my doctors do so...
But, it was awesome. And she said to let her know how it goes so we will probably be talking more. So, that's good.
But, at least I took all of your advice and I did it. I was shaking really bad and could barely talk but I kept on telling her stuff. Eventually I felt comfortable talking about it because she knew what I was saying so well.
So, I feel better now that I did.
But, a draw back, I found out tennis try-outs are next Tuesday. I have been looking forward to it, before I started going back to the doctor again, and now I won't be able to play. Luckily, my facorite teacher is the coach so I am hoping to be on the team anyways, but not play right now.
I am going to tell her everything tomorrow and she will understand. So, hopefully, I can still be affiliated with the team even though I can't play.
She will probably feel sorry for me if I tell her I am sick and can't play right now. At least until I am in the clear with my heart, even then I can't because of my bone problems and such. But, I was going to do it anyways and push past it, but I have a feeling like something is going to show up. If not, I have a feeling like it is best I don't play or something WILL show up and it won't be good.
So, that's basically all. I just have to sit back and wait for my Lyme results which I don't know why, but I figure it is worth a shot. Well, I hate to take up so much space so I am going to go.
Thanks so much! See ya!
-------------------- Jesus sweated blood over the task that lay before Him.He could have escaped his brutal execution at anytime,but he didn't he stayed there for you.
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Ok, I am sorry, but I keep forgetting I wrote another poem-thing(if you want to call it that) the other day. I just chicken scratched it down.
If you guys like I will work on making it into something. But, I will put the lines I scribbled down to see what you think. Or if you have any suggestions!
Keep in mind, I just gotted this down. I was feeling it so I was put it down. I will go back and make changes and work on it if you think it has potential.
Open Opinion! Tell me what you think!
It's called: Hidden Feelings(for now! best I could do!)
All the emotions Kept in a bottle Locked far away from reality Worthlessness, guilt, and loss, My minds acts as boss
It makes me change My mood, feeling, and pain My emotion never shows So no one ever knows The way I feel inside It's like a long, bumpy ride
I never know The change I can't control I get worried, confused, and angered It happens before I know it I can never control it
I shake and cry But, I always get by I am more than one person Trapped within one Two different sides to me
One by day, one by night It was never right But it still happened For some reason I do not know I suffer, but it never shows No one listens No one understands No one to hold my hand
I accept all things for what they are I have taken my life far I won't give up til this fight is over Never looking back over my shoulder The physical and emotional war won't end Not until I win
Well, I know it isn't much, but that's it. Hope it wasn't a waste of a minute of your time! Thanks! And remember to tell me what YOU think! Your opinon matters to me!
-------------------- Jesus sweated blood over the task that lay before Him.He could have escaped his brutal execution at anytime,but he didn't he stayed there for you.
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Thank you! That's shocking to me actually, because I never erase anything. If something comes and I write it down I can use it for something else. I started that and never erased and I just kept writing what pooped in my head and that's how it turned out.
I put it on paper and haven't touched it since. I did use one of my previous poems for a school assignment. I was thinking about using my first Lyme poem I put on here for a writing contest at school, but I wasn't sure about it.
I keep both of them in my pocket at all times and keep scratch paper and when I feel the desire to write, I write!
Thank you. I think I am starting to come out of my shell a little. "THANKS TO YOU GUYS!!"
I would never have done that had it not been for you guys. You guys talked me into it. But, I felt I had to do something! So, I DID!!
Well, thanks so much!
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I liked your poem too.
I do that too... write on scraps when it comes...
I have lost alot of fragments and poems over the years...
But I have gotten better at keeping all my various scraps and poems together...
But I am 30 so I guess I should be better organized (well as organized as my lyme brain will allow)
If you want you could also post it (or any others) on the lyme artist sight. The link is at the bottom of of my post.
I tried to sign up, but my computer just says it cannot be found and won't let me. I will try again later.
I will put them on there, I guess.
Thanks.
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This is good. Welcome to General
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i'm very glad you took many of our advices. most peopel hear are lay people, but like you have been doing, RESEARCH PRIOR TO GOING TO THE DOCTOR. OUR MEDICAL SYSTEM IS FAILING SINCE I GOT OUT OF DENTAL SCHOOL. HMO'S ARE DESTROYING WHAT WAS ONCE THE BEST MEDICAL SYSTEM IN THE CIUNTRY.
you can not longer be a patient with your disease. like you did today, and i am very proud of you, you took the bull by the horn, and opened you mouth, and good things happen.
believe it or not most doctors appreciate informed patients( now informed consumers) yes it is like buying a tv, you must ask questions and be part of your treatment.
do not be afaid to copy something on lymenet they may help you, and give it to your doctor.
my doctor is great, but i am teaching him. i decide my treatment unless he totally diagrees this is my 3rd lyme doc. if i think, and i know my body better than him, i want to try something , he gives me full attention and writes almost any script i want.
if he feels i'm wrong we discuss it , and we usually go with his recomendation. you need to have a rapport with your doc, and he must respect you, and not treat you like a piece of meat. standing up to a doctor at 15 is a strong step to bringing about a good rapport with your doc.
doctors are only funnels of knowledge. before the internet, there were no other sources for this knowledge. with the internet, knowledge is free, abundant and useful.
i actually dx myself when i went into a rhemy's office. i had rotating joint pain. this is diagnostic of lyme. i lived outside philly in a endemic area for lyme.
he said it was impossible for me to have lyme. i told him what tests to run and even with Quest, the worst lab in the country i had an elisa of 5.6 western blot with 9 postive bands.
keep up the good work, and read up on what procedures you have prior to going to the doc. this will ease your mine and YOU WILL BE IN CONTROL.
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ps, forgot. look at www.lymelog.com this is a great daily log to keep records of day to day. you can print it and take to doc. you would be surprised how reveling this log can be and patterns that arise.
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Thanks! And thanks kelmo, but I have actually been in General before! This is not actually my first time believe it or not! Hard to believe I know, but it tis true!
Well, thanks you guys. I couldn't have done it without you. You get the AWARD FOR MOST HELPFUL!!! You guys have made me smarter, stronger, confident, and a better person. I have learned so much just so far and I have a long way to go. But, this will prove useful in the years to come.
And I really appreciate all the help. So far, I can say 'job well done!' I think I took a turn onto a different road today. A new path. One that doesn't have as many obstacles and thorn bushes! It is almost a paved path. With small obstacles that I know I can overcome. But, paved by you guys. So, I knew it was the right turn!
HaHa...I think I just had a moment there. Strange. Well, it tis getting late. And I have school ...goh I cringe at the site of that word.
Also, I have a Psychology test tomorrow and I know I will ace it because it is about Psychological disorders such as depression, anxiety, sleep, and all that and I am a pro when it comes to that stuff!! HaHa yep. Wonder why?!?
Well, thanks again!
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if you are interested you can go to www.writing.com and sign up... it is a neat place, you can rate other poems and writings from regular people who love to write and you can put your writings on there for others to rate and give advice...it could be a good thing for you ("OUR NEXT GREAT AUTHOR").. HAVE A GREAT EVENING.. HUGS>>>LISA
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Give yourself a pat on the back Christi. YOu are going to make it girl!
Mary
p.s. Great poem.
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Umm...do I have to pat my back? It hurts when I do that!
Does anyone ever like have to scratch or something over your ribs and then your ribs hurt really bad? I think that's how I could explain it...but my ribs like move when I push on them and they hurt really bad. Is it the same with anyone else?
Well, that happens to me. Anyways, today started ok until 1st period. I kept getting sick to my stomach over and over again. Usually I do just once in the morning, but today that wasn't the case.
We were reviewing for our history test and I am the only one in there who actually does my work so I answer all the questions out loud. I was HOARSE!
I felt like something was in my throat and now I feel a weird sore throat type feeling, but it isn't a sore throat. For me, that is bad because of my high ASO.
So, when I get strep or a sore throat it means my ASO sky rockets even more. Which is bad, I guess.
So...I am not feeling real good right now so I am going to go take a nap or something. I am so tired. Thank God tomorrow is Friday. And we are having a party all day at school for those who passed all there Grad Exams the first time! Like me! So...hopefully that will go well.
Thanks...see ya!
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Hi -- I had a similar experience, finding out that a neighbor sounded like me when she started talking. I thought I was hearing an echo.
As you start to find people with this condition, you won't feel so alone. And then they'll also have a chance to talk to you and let it out.
It's so just right under the surface often. I communicated about Lyme disease at our health fair last weekend and found several people who had no idea what was causing their confusing symptoms.
I second everyone's comments about knowing as much as you can when you go in to deal with medical people. So often I have to tell the medical provider what I think is needed. Sigh.
I hope you keep writing...
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Hey, everyone. I got my Lyme test back! Can you guess what it said!?
........................negative...............
Of course, I told my mom to ask the nurse, "If it is negative, can she still have it?"
Just so I could laugh when she said no and the woman actually said, "No, if she were positive it WOULD have shown up."
When my mom told me that I laughed out loud! I am glad I know not to trust it! Otherwise it would get me down, but it doesn't. This just means I have to fight harder to figure it out.
But, thanks to all of you(!), I am armed and ready for the fight! I am not the type of person who loses easily either! So...they can just watch out! Cuz I'm coming!
Also, I am an aid for my fave teacher and I was grading essay's, one of my friends wrote an essay about ticks! They have to write using a science magazine and whatever mag. she got if from had an article about ticks.
I read her paper and it was ok, but it left out a lot of the really important stuff. But, it did cover the basics of ticks. It talked about Lyme and several other tick-borne illnesses. I was actually amazed that after learning about Lyme everything starts showing to me.
Like when you see a new kind of car and all of a sudden they start showing up everywhere.
So, I talked with my teacher about playing tennis and she understood because she was talking to another teacher on the computer about how she had been having her heart problem and she felt like it was an attack just walking to lunch and she didn't know if she would be able to play tennis tomorrow.
So, she understood because I guess she sort of has the same problem. I told her my whole medical story and she just said I could come and try-out and if I got tired or started hurting or anything I could sit and not play. It was up to me. I don't know because if I don't play and nothing is wrong with my heart I will be mad at myself for not going for it.
But if I do play and something is wrong it could be bad. And I am not sure it would be worth the risk. So...I guess I will just have to think about it.
Well, thanks and have a GREAT WEEKEND!!!
-------------------- Jesus sweated blood over the task that lay before Him.He could have escaped his brutal execution at anytime,but he didn't he stayed there for you.
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Hi Wilson Gal, I didnt read where YOU said anything about who did the test?? Was it done by a no-name lab?? was it an Elissa or a western blot?? Another question for your so-called duck of learning,,,is,,, would he be willing to do a western blot and send it to Igenex(unless thats what was done and sent to)Also done at begginning of the week??
So many tests are goofed up intentionally,,or unknowingly , that no weight should be placed on the ignorant goofs,,but ALL docs do!! Its just that they are used to GOOD tests for everything. IF your doc refuses to do a retest cause you dont have it,,,ask him IF he is aware that only 60% of these tests are accurate??? Then gauge the jaw drop of same doc. This ISNT a testing diease!!
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Dear Christi,
That was the fastest turn around time for a Lyme test....that I've ever seen on this board.
I second Don't question....Was it an Elisa (a test known to miss Lyme frequently ) or a Western Blot (also known to miss Lyme)?
Hang in there.
Hugs,
Geneal
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I am not sure actually. But, it couldn't have been anything worth something. It takes a week for them to get my ASO titer level. It only took 2 days to get my Lyme test. NO WAY!!! CRAZY DUCK!
He was like, "Hey, yea, we can get a Lyme TITER!"
I was like, "What the crap is a Lyme TITER?"
He was such a weirdo anyways!
I believe it was done by a no-name lab. It was just out of curiosity. I told my mom 5 times to get the Igenex kit...all she said was that she didn't have money for it... END OF STORY!!!
That phrase so many adults use when they don't feel like listening or don't want to be bothered! But, I told her over and over again. She was getting angry so I stopped.
I don't know. I am all tired, wornout, restless, confused, STRESSED, and everything else you guys already know.
School just washes me out even more. It runs me dry. I am supposed to take this ASSETT test thing like the ACT test to see if I can get college credit for my Pre-Calculus class this coming school year and I am scared about it. And tennis. Because I really want to play.
Actually, that brings me to what I was going to say, I talked to my favorite teacher today who is one of the coaches. I told her I didn't know if I was going to try-out.
She said 'Why not'(cuz she really wants me to, I am one of her fave students!)
And I told her everything. I noticed what she was typing and when I mentioned my heart thing she was like that is what I was just writing.
Apparently she has a heart problem. I didn't know that! She misses a lot of school and stuff and I always wondered if she had something wrong with her. I just wonder what now. But, she understodd what I was saying.
She said I could go play and if I start not feeling good or anything (a huge list of symptoms she said!) I could stop and sit down. No biggy.
So she understands. That's good. But, I think I am going to go watch but not try-out this year. I will next year. If I can. Or if nothing proves wrong wiht my heart I can get her to let me join.
I will know at the end of this month. I go for my echo on the 21st. And I am scared to death. So, I should know soon after that, which is before school is out so....
Well, it is really late for me. And I am super tired, so...Wishing you a GREAT WEEKEND!!!
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Ms. christi: do not feel bad about missing tennis . i know how important it can be but it is only one small step in the path of life.
i was number one on my tennis team in high school. i won all my matchs, so did the team. the week before states, i got mono, and the doc actually had to sedate me so i would not play. life takes turns good and bad.
i also played number one singles and doubles in college. UMBC ,branch of Univ of Maryland. Honors campus. in my senoir year, when i was aiming for med school, i had a final exam in literature. i also had a NCAA tournament, guess which one i picked. i picked tennis, the teacher would not let me retake the test, the dean upheld her decision. i got a c in the course ,my only c in college. (had A going into final) i could have taken the test on the bus with my coach watching but she refused.
i went to dental school instead of becoming a heart surgeon. the world's loss. i was an excellent dentist but would have made great strides in any surgical field. i am also an inventor.
so as they say life goes on, grab it as it goes by.
Next: info- a positive pcr test means you have lyme period, no question. it is a dna test for the lyme bacteria.[simple blood test] bad news: pcr's rarely come back postive. why? because lyme is a disease with few bacteria in the circulation system. itis not like a flu infection where every drop of blood has the virus in it. it is like looking for a ping-pong ball in a pool.
you may have 20 tests and never find the ping pong ball. i have postive tests for everything except pcr. why again? because if the bb are not circulating in blood ie cycts forms in tissue, you will not get a postive test. for you to get a positive pcr you need at least 1 cell with lyme in the container. even if you do have a cell in there, they run a pcr on 1 drop of blood, making it even harder to find.
the body does not produce a good antibody to bb, because bb is stealth. this is why bb can go untreated for years. the body does not see the bacteria to make an antibody. this is also why the western blot and elisa are not reliable.
keep a good outlook kid, were here to help. just to make you smile a little.
when i was 18 i played in a national tournament i was all psyched to win a match or two. and watching the competition ,i felt comfortable.
the draw came out and i drew, Vitas Geralitis the first round. Vitas was 14 and playing 14, 16 and 18. he won all three. i got 3 points off him. moral: you never know what life has in store for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Actually, I have decided to try-out. For a few reasons. The coach is my FAVORITE teacher! She asked me to! And she said,"we would love to have you on the team." So, basically, I am guarenteed a spot on the team.
I have been looking forward to it for several months. I have NEVER even played before. But, I am one of those people who have natural talent for anything I do. I am very good at sports.
And I got my best friend to try-out and I would feel bad if I just ditched her. And she isn't friends with anyone else who is on the team or trying-out. So...
But, I really want to be on the team, whether or not my body permits me to play. My teacher knows about my medical stuff and she is ok with it. I think she has a heart condition so she can understand. And she said if I start feeling anything I didn't have to play. So, I figure it is worth a shot.
I don't want to because I am afraid something could be wrong with me and it could be made worse or if I DO have something wrong with my heart, I am going to find out the wrong way...on the court. And that would be very bad.
It's just I have pain and stuff all the time for no reason. I think if I play it will bring it on harder than normal. And I don't want it to be worse than it is. But, I REALLY to play!!
So, I don't know. I am going to TRY. If something happens, I am not going to push myself to much or hurt myself. I just hope I don't get sick or start hurting really bad while I am there. Chest pains would be bad! I have dreams about it every night.
That I start having heart problems on the court and I have to go the hospital and find out something WAS wrong. So...I am worried about that.
But, I am going to do it. I have an echo at the end of the month, so I will find out then, hopefully. And I will push through the bone and muscle pain like usual. So...
I don't know. I will let you guys know how it goes. We have practice tomorrow afternoon for 2 hours, but I am going an hour early.
I am nervous and scared, but excited! Wish me luck! Of course, the drawback, I have school tomorrow. Yay....
Need to get some sleep. See ya!
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I haven't been on in a while. I have been SO busy lately. And I can't keep up anymore. I had tennis Monday and it was so awesome! Very addicting! And I was pretty good!
I was SOOOO sore Tuesday. My leg muscles were killing me from the exercises. And now my knees are so sore. Not the muscle but my actual knees.
I left for tennis when I got off the bus from school and played for a little over 3 hours and got home so tired I fell out as soon as I walked in the door. And then woke up early for school.
Today we didn't have tennis. I am so sore and tired. Here lately I am so tired all the time. I really want to sleep constantly and when I go to sleep I wake up just as tired or more tired than when I went to bed.
Today I slept during 5th period and on the bus home and went to bed when I walked in the door. I am ONLY up now because I have several tests tomorrow and really need to study because I have been doing worse and missed classes alot lately.
Ok, now to my question, during exercises Monday, we didn't run or nothing we just did leg stretches and stuff and my heart was pounding out of my chest. My legs went numb and felt shaky and felt unstable. And yesterday my legs were ok, but my arms felt weird. They felt numblike, but not completely. They were both scary moments. So, I thought I would ask if anyone has ever had this happen.
And I still don't know anything about my heart. The test is a week from this Monday. Hopefully, I will know then. I just got scared it had something to do with that. Because my heart was pounding so hard and I didn't really get tired or anything my heart just started beating faster and harder. And we didn't do any cardio. Just slow leg stretches.
But, playing I didn't get tired at all and my heart didn't beat like that playing.
I have to go again tomorrow and Friday is try-outs! I can't wait! I was so nervous, but it was th greatest thing ever!
Also, I am having a hard time reading. We are reading a lot in English now and I can't focus to read. And I notice all these little noises and they bother me and I can't work. And then when I do read I mess up the words and it takes me longer.
Also, I have been messing up when I talk too. I will be talking and my words come out all backwards. For example, I asked a friend," Why was your mom late yesterday?" It came out, "Why was your mom yesterday late?"
I do that alot. I say words wrong or say the sentence backwards when I know what I want to say it just comes out wrong. Strange! It is strange to me and I do it alot now and my friends just laugh and I laugh to, but on the inside it kind of scares me because I do it a lot.
I am starting to notice little things and I feel like I am being overprotective of myself. I can't tell simple things from things that be big. Like the things I just asked about. So, I don't know anymore what is 'normal' and what isn't.
So, if you have any advice I would really appreciate it!
Well, I have to study and off to bed again! AGAIN! So I can wake up and go back to sleep on the bus and be tired and sore all day! And go play tennis some more!
The only good things about tomorrow is I get my class ring!!! YaY! And I get to play tennis! My new favorite thing! Even though it hurts a lot. I love to play. Huge adrenaline rush!
I don't see why people need drugs! Tennis is addicting and rushing and completely awesome! I love it!
Well, sorry, I am venting again, I just can't shut up. I'm sorry.
Off to study and sleep!
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Or maybe for an English assignment!![[Smile]](smile.gif)
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And I am scared to death. So, I should know soon after that, which is before school is out so....
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