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Hi, I'm Dar's wife and would like to tell my side of living with a broken toy.
When you first find out that the toy is broken you have high hopes that someone can fix it.
But as time goes on and you've spent all of your savings, you realize that all attempts have failed and the toy is still broke, never to be the same.
It's almost like a death, you cry many tears. You start to treasure the broken toy, hold it, protect it, put it where no one can hurt it again.
When your feeling down, you get this toy and set with it and remember all the things you used to do together, go camping, hiking, visit all types of neat places.
You would like to do this again but your toy can no longer do these types of thing and you aren't strong enough to carry it with you.
So you go alone, but it's not the same. It's lonely and there's no one to share special things with. Your memories are what keep you going.
You do what you can to find things to keep your toy company so it won't be alone all day while your at work. You check frequently to make sure it's ok and the first time you can't find it you panic and run around franticly until you do and are sure it's still there and ok.
Your toy becomes agrivated with you because you worry to much and he just want to go and play with the other toys or find a quiet place to take a nap and not be disturbed.
You try to understand but still get upset and hurt because your toy is angry. You know it's not his fault but it still hurts.
In some ways being the caretaker of the broken toys is as hard as it is for the toy. You feel guilty that you can't fix your toy and that your life still goes on normally, or some what normally.
You do your best to make everything ok but once in a while thing just become overwhelming and you fall apart. That's when your toy is most important.
It makes you feel better just to know it's there and it still loves you and counts on you to take care of it.
Some times it's very hard to be the care taker of the broken toys. Would I change anything? Only if I could fix MY broken toy.
[ 15. May 2007, 12:57 PM: Message edited by: Texas TixanDar Dar ]
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Thanks for posting this, Ann! Great explanation of how it feels!!
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bettyg
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ann, yes, it was wonderfully written and i wrote more after your post on tutu's story about dar!
god bless you for sharing..both of you!
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It takes a special person to stay with a spouse who has undergone all those changes. Hat's off to you. Many are not willing to remain, making those who do even that more special.
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