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Hi! My name is Fannie, im from Quebec , Canada, a place where lyme disease is not recongnize at all, they totally denie it's here, and a lot poeple say to have been bitten here, and most go in usa to be treated. Hi started freaking out 4 years and 1/2 ago, coming back from British Coloubia Canada, where i worked as a cherry picker... sometimes after my arrival, i started feeling spaced out, depress, i stayed alone, paniqued,my head was telling �i want to die, i want to die� (probably bartonella) lost my concentration, felt in a hell i couldn't describe to anyone, telling me i was in depression, and was not able to breath correctly...So i took antidepressor and it calm down..To forget this hell, i drank all the time, partying(im 24) and there started physicals problems more than my breathing problems who was making me crazy since 4 years. I started having pain under my feet, having diarea problems,getting waight, itchy anus, fatigue etc... I had no idea why i had all these stuff, i knew nothing about lyme disease, nothing...
In june 2007, i put two amalgams fillings(mercury fillings) in my mouth... Then, the hell came back, in 50% worst. I started having pain everywhere, losing my mind, screaming, paniqued, more breath problems, so after looking on internet, i thought i was intoxicated to mercury, that it was my diagnosis. But, by the time i found aan environnemental doctor who knows about it, i lost 40 pounds, lost my hair, started to have join pain, burninig and twitching sensations, chest pain etc etc... That's why, she tested me for lyme, that she's sure i have, and the mercry did just make it worst... Im totally lost, paniqued all the time, lose my mind, suicidal and pain everywhere, everywhere, and my family reject me, just my boyfriend support me, but we don't even know how we,ll pay this, im 24, stop everything an he is a beginner musician... We,re devasted by this, actually more me,i'm so sad, like all u, to have lose my life. But here, nobody knows about lyme but fibromyalgia is in expansion...
The gole of my message is to tell u that's it's totally real that mercury wake up the lyme and you must pay attention. First, not taking out your amalgams without precaution: mask and everything, u must find an hollistic dentist, second, don't put anymore mercury fillings in your mouth...
Whe're gonna try to find a way to pay medications and Iv chelator treatment to take off my mercury... But this is if i stay alive...
Now my life is to stand at home, souffering and hopping to survive, but i think to suicide every minute.
I'm also so discouraged because at age of 11, i had a cat scatch who made an infection, an now i see that this was bartonella, and doctors told me nothing... Its crazy, this world is crazy...
Me, in my state, i can understand why Bush is a so bad president..Maby he suffer like us, but ignore it's his lyme still going on... My god, i suffer for Bush...
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bejoy
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Hi Fannie,
Thanks for posting here.
Thanks for the warning about mercury, amalgam fillings, and safe removals. Mercury sure can make lyme worse.
I am so sorry you are suffering so much.
It is such a miracle you found out what was wrong. I'm sorry it is so hard for you to be going through all this.
Keep us posted. You can get through this and get better.
-------------------- bejoy!
"Do not go where the path may lead; go instead where there is no path and leave a trail." -Ralph Waldo Emerson Posts: 1918 | From Alive and Well! | Registered: Feb 2007
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I am sorry that you are going through so much, but I am glad that you have reached out here-to help others at that.
I do want to encourage you that it is possible for you to get well. I say this totally believing that you have every symptom that you mentioned and that they are as severe as you indicated. It is so important for others to believe us.
My kids were infected with lyme and co-infections 8 years ago. They steadily got worse until my daugher was pretty much bed-ridden.
It was so bad that on more than one occasion I, and they prayed for God to take them because their suffering was so great.
They are now improving with treatment. It has been slow, but our situation has become bearable and we happily are seeing their symptoms diminish steadily. Every month I look back and see that some symtom has abated. My son had such pain in his feet that he could stand 2 seconds without pain. One day last fall it totally disappeared out of nowhere. My daughter is working at a coffee shop part-time!
I hope that some part of the above may help keep hope alive. If it is too much, we will have it for you and do what we can to help you get care and cared for.
Best Wishes,
kpa
Posts: 56 | From Virginia | Registered: Jun 2007
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Many of us here have and are being treated for depression, which has kept us alive and helped us get well. My lyme doctor believes that it is nearly impossible to get well if one is seriously depressed.
Even pyschiatrists that do not understand lyme usually will prescribe something to help a person if they are to the point of suicidal thoughts. These meds won't fix health problems, but can help you survive and think clearly to get out of them.
Most places have clinics that will help those who cannot afford a private psychiatrist.
Please consider going.
Take care!
Posts: 56 | From Virginia | Registered: Jun 2007
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