I thought I would post a general message to introduce myself in order to get acquainted with the forum & members.
For the past three years I have been sick, on and off. I lost a lot of time at work and in college. I was either told I had the flu and sent home. Sometimes I 'might' have this or that, and was prescribed antibiotics (which never did anything). I'd get so sick at times that getting out of bed was impossible. This past year has been the worst of the worst. I've had approximately eight ED visits - never with an outcome. Three of those visits were with in a month span by ambulance because I could not ambulate without excruciating pain, became photo- phobic & stiff with tremors. I even experienced what was diagnosed as a 'drop down' seizure, in which I recollect nothing, without any hx. of seizures. Symptoms such as; on & off fevers, severe joint pain (limbs, shins, toes, ankles, elbows, fingers, neck), insomnia, lethargy, photo-phobia, tremors, sore throats on & off, dehydration, blurry vision, severe short term memory problems, exacerbation of psychiatric issues (depression & anxiety), seizures, migranes, salvation, weight gain & loss, many cognitive difficulties & more odd symptoms I could rattle off to you all. I was never diagnosed - always told i had a 'potential' seizure or i was dehydrated. Sometimes the ED MD's looked at me like I was a pain medication seeker. This has all been very frustrating.
I was seeing a pediatrician, whom I just had to leave due to being much too old for him anymore - who specialized in infectious disease. I was given many upon many blood tests. Lyme tests always came back negative. I saw an allergist & immunologist - all testing normal as could be. Finally it has become quite obvious my symptoms are that of Lyme disease & not of any of the many diagnosis' I had received through specialty docs. I'm now playing the waiting game. My apt. is only two weeks away with a Lyme specialist & I am almost excited. It seems I am having more bad days or 'flare ups' than good days...& I feel as if I am going crazy at times.
So, that is my story in [very] short. Thanks to someone my mother met, I have found this site and am grateful. It feels awful lonely lately.
-agrace.
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Geneal
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Welcome to the board.
Just the quest to get a diagnosis can be one of the most
Difficult barriers for those of us with Lyme to get through.
You aren't crazy.
If I told you how many times I was sent home with xanax or paxil
For Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or Generalized Anxiety disorder,
It would make your head spin.
I knew there was something truly wrong with me.
I didn't give up on finding out.
Hang in there.
I hope that your doctor (Lyme specialist) is a member of ILADs.
Keep us posted on your visit.
In the meantime, positive thoughts and prayers coming your way.
Hugs,
Geneal
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lymielauren28
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Hey Grace and welcome!
I'm so sorry for all that you've been through but so glad that you found this sight and that you'll be getting to an LLMD soon.
All the symptoms you just listed were ones that I had before treatment. I can't tell you how many times I thought I was going crazy too. Fortunately, now that I'm being treated, most of those symptoms are gone.
With the right treatment and time you will get over this.
Once again, welcome and glad you're here!
Lauren
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map1131
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No!!! You are not crazy. When you start seeing a LLMD you will realize that they have heard it all from seriously ill patients for years.
Rarely could you get an experienced LLMD to raise their eyebrows at you and your complaints/symptoms. It is what it is. It changes from hour to hour, day to day, season to season.
Prepare yourself that even with treatment there is going to be some ups and downs. It's not a smooth journey and it usually takes many months to see improvement.
Patience my dear, patience.
Pam
-------------------- "Never, never, never, never, never give up" Winston Churchill Posts: 6478 | From Louisville, Ky | Registered: Jan 2002
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bettyg
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welcome, sorry, i'm 1 of many neuros here who can't read your solid block post. please break it all up into shorter paragraphs; see below guidelines ok big thanks.
Welcome; i'm so glad you found us!! You've come to the right place for education and support!
Dr. Burrascano's most recent "Diagnostic Hints and Treatment Guidelines for Lyme and Other Tick Borne Illnesses" @
please see BettyG's newbie package info on the link below; click on link at bottom of my package. Check it out as time permits for you! @ http://tinyurl.com/58eyou
sorry, link takes you to END vs. beginning, so just use UP ARROW and go to the TOP for detailed info! thanks!
Fyi: we have over 1000 viewers daily; 200 - 400 posting/replying; so specific titles get our time/replies. non-specific ones, i sob, scroll on by!
Also, please be very specific in the subject line what you will be discussing so more people will be able to assist you.
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please go to my newbie links, copy the entire thing, and then print this off....
financial burdens compiled by melanie reber pages 74 - 92; outstanding info there.
also in my table of contents, for FINANCIAL BURDENS, i believe there are a few more general comments there without links!! print that off too as it's newer info from members thru their own personal, tragic experiences. thoughts and prayers headed your way..
Betty's POSTING GUIDELINES
When you post or reply, please break up your solid, continuous block text welcome to the board! many of us have neuro lyme where we can NOT read long solid block text and be able to comprehend and read it as is.
please edit your post by CLICKING PAPER/PENCIL ICON to right of your name. that opens up BOTH subject line and body text.
now please break up your WORDY SENTENCES into one sentence paragraphs. Then hit ENTER KEY ``THREE`` after each paragraph; we need that space for comprehension.
if you are NOT a wordy person, you can do 2 or 3 total ok. do this for your entire post.
NOTE: you do NOT have to use "", just show the name of person you are responding to, and then type your comment.
IF you need to use "", PLEASE DELETE "BOLD" CODES so it's regular type text we read vs. the DARK, HARSH/PAINFUL BOLDING.
specifically, delete the first 4 characters of 2ND LINE of a ""
[QB] just delete these 4 characters, and BOLDING is GONE! my eyes will really appreciate that; it's one very bad side effect of my having lyme for 38.5 years!! xox
then go to left hand corner and mark box to receive ALL REPLIES, and click EDIT SEND
we thank you for helping us; otherwise, we will SOB, SCROLL ON BY, since we can't read to help you. If I see posts like this, I SOB them; to hard on me.
LYMETOO'S DR. C'S EXPLANATION OF WESTERN BLOT TESTING!
PRINT THIS OFF the full explanation, and then CIRCLE the numbers that coincide with your positives, IND! That will explain your no. results!
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Carol in PA
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quote:Originally posted by agrace:
I thought I would post a general message to introduce myself in order to get acquainted with the forum & members.
For the past three years I have been sick, on and off. I lost a lot of time at work and in college. I was either told I had the flu and sent home.
Sometimes I 'might' have this or that, and was prescribed antibiotics (which never did anything).
I'd get so sick at times that getting out of bed was impossible. This past year has been the worst of the worst. I've had approximately eight ED visits - never with an outcome.
Three of those visits were with in a month span by ambulance because I could not ambulate without excruciating pain, became photo- phobic & stiff with tremors.
I even experienced what was diagnosed as a 'drop down' seizure, in which I recollect nothing, without any hx. of seizures.
Symptoms such as; on & off fevers, severe joint pain (limbs, shins, toes, ankles, elbows, fingers, neck), insomnia, lethargy, photo-phobia, tremors, sore throats on & off, dehydration, blurry vision, severe short term memory problems, exacerbation of psychiatric issues (depression & anxiety), seizures, migraines, salivation, weight gain & loss, many cognitive difficulties & more odd symptoms I could rattle off to you all.
I was never diagnosed - always told i had a 'potential' seizure or i was dehydrated.
Sometimes the ED MD's looked at me like I was a pain medication seeker. This has all been very frustrating.
I was seeing a pediatrician, whom I just had to leave due to being much too old for him anymore - who specialized in infectious disease.
I was given many upon many blood tests. Lyme tests always came back negative. I saw an allergist & immunologist - all testing normal as could be.
Finally it has become quite obvious my symptoms are that of Lyme disease & not of any of the many diagnosis' I had received through specialty docs.
I'm now playing the waiting game. My apt. is only two weeks away with a Lyme specialist & I am almost excited. It seems I am having more bad days or 'flare ups' than good days...& I feel as if I am going crazy at times.
So, that is my story in [very] short. Thanks to someone my mother met, I have found this site and am grateful. It feels awful lonely lately.
-agrace.
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Carol in PA
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Okay, you have two weeks before you see the doctor.
You should print off the four pages of this pdf file:
Nutritional Supplements in Disseminated Lyme Disease, Dr. Burrascano, July 2008
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Thank you all for your support.It is greatly appreciated.
Monday is my appointment....hoping for some answers to this frustrating illness. Keep your fingers crossed for me! In the meantime, I am being patient and getting by one day at a time.
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Hi there! You have certainly come to the right place!
I am going to give you a very important piece of advice that another
very understanding, compassionate, and empathetic person
here on this site (uhh, no names mentioned TinCup)gave me when I felt just like you....
Write on your forehead:
I AM NOT CRAZY
Seriously, that was my worst "symptom"!
My chronic Lyme gives me the worst symptoms in the areas of thinking, brain function, and mood.
I also have many physical symptoms (some of which are downright weird) that are on your list.
I think there are many of us here who can identify with you.
I'm so sorry that you are going thru this.
See your dr. And come visit us when you need sanity.
Mar
-------------------- The Bite: July 1995 Next 13 years: Treated for things I didn't have Symptom total: 45 1 faint Lyme IgM May 2000 5 More negative tests IGeneX says YES! 3/16/09 Finally feel human: 2012 Posts: 120 | From Plainsboro NJ | Registered: Feb 2007
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Keebler
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In addition to wise words above . . . about the feeling "crazy" thing - I'd advise NEVER to use that word or concept around anyone else and drop it from your self-talk.
Especially, NEVER mention this term - or possibility - to a doctor who is not LL. Most doctors would love to write that quote in patients' charts and that label can actually stick.
I know because I said the same thing once to a doctor and it was put in my chart. From there on, I was only offered psychiatric meds.
They made me much worse and I was actually about to go through with electro-shock treatments so that I could get rid of the brain fog and myriad of other symptoms that - I had been assured - could not be of a physical cause. Glad I passed on that prescription.
It would be years before my inner ear doctor told me to get tested for lyme. Bingo.
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Oh, and Carol is so right about magnesium. Many lyme patients are very low in this and adding it can be extremely helpful.
You have found the best place possible to learn and to get support for your physical challenges.
The crazy thing.......forget it! We are just sick people who are ahead of the pack as far as doctors are concerned. Many will eventually feel ashamed for the way they treated us.
Becoming whole again (it is possible!) is a journey. I have found no day to be the same. I was misdiagnosed for 12 years and am now on a new path to recovery.
I am so glad you found a Lyme specialist. So many of us struggle to find a Lyme literate doc and have to travel great distances to obtain treatment.
I have not posted here for a long time. That is because my journey in treatment is challenging and I needed a break.
Never doubt that what you are experiencing is real. It is very real. Depending on how ill you are and what treatment you receive, what you feel physically and emotionally may change almost every day.
Be kind to yourself. This opportunity to recapture your health can offer you blessings that you never expect.
All my best to you. Welcome and visit here often!
Lovingly, Janet
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