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Monday I saw a new PC. She completely dismissed my history of lyme disease, and all my symptoms and should have had a huge post-it on her head that said, "I DONT CARE" or "YOU ARE A HYPOCHONDRIAC". No one wants to treat me. My doctor wont give me a referral to Dr. Donta therefor I doubt he will take my case. FML. I'm so tired and frustrated.
This week I also lost my best friend. I had a fierce mood swings and was honest. Unfortunately, honesty has never won me friends. 15 years out of 20. Now she's gone. She can continue to get mistreated by her trashy boyfriend that knocked her up and already has 2 kids, and no job. Good riddance.
Feeling, lonely, psychotic, depressed, and in pain. Happy new year.
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Are you doing anything to bind neurotoxins? I found out that if I don't, I lose my mind, and I am not even on antibiotics right now. Are you psychotic, or just extremely anxious and depressed?
I thought I went through a state of psychosis at one point, but I think it may have been neurotoxicity caused by the antibiotics and/or the die off. I felt very confused, and had mood swings that I can't completely remember.
Since you lost your friend, maybe a part of it is situational? Do you have anyone else or a counselor you can talk to about your feelings?
-Kyle
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kidsgotlyme
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I'm so sorry LynAsaurus.
It's hard to lose a friend. I have experienced that kind of loss as well. It hurts, especially when you are sick and in pain. My heart goes out to you.
For me, having the stress of losing a friend made me sicker. Please try to get out and socialize with someone. Take a walk. Anything to get your mind off of things.
Sending prayers up for you.....Christie
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Tincup
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You said.. "Feeling, lonely, psychotic, depressed, and in pain. Happy new year."
You forgot to mention sarcastic too!
But having lost a friend does suck... and being stomped on by those dang ducks is awful!!!!
So sorry it happened that way.
BUT... it WILL get better!
You may have to work on it.. but it will get better.
Pinelady
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Just don't give up. It took me over 2 years to get to a LLMD. I would call them and ask for appt.
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