nonna05
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Most of you know the triplets weren't allowed to come see me..
Final decision finally made, so plans were bit in the air before
Their Birthday is Aug, 3RD... I had all these thing's bought and my room looks like Old Navy/Target/Amazon..
Purchases over several month's.. Click and buy, then figure how to pay...
Anyway I had a friend coming over to help get boxes ready to ship.. She didn't make it or call..
I asked for tape...None..Long story short I Have only hours to get these boxes ready... Cause it takes 2 weeks ,plus to get there..
Then the air conditioner broke today...
I get so much sicker with the heat...
It's was the first day in a few that with help I was ready to try.. Now I'm worn out, hot, in pain, don't have help and am missing their B-day for the first time ever..
It's 2 plus, now 3 in the morning, my heart is breaking, if I push any harder ,right now , I will pay for it for days and the heat.....
God this illness is so horrible......
I just need prayer,,,,,,,,,,The girls and I have this special thing about The two big Holidays,,Christmas and B-day.. It is the NONNA thing.
They had a good Christmas ,but mentioned how they missed the way we usually do it, and me not being there.
This is one of my strongest connection's with them, since their parents decided to live in Rep/Georgia. Then I sing Hallelujah some nights on speaker phone while they go to sleep, Then Sykpe.
.My daughter is trying to help by saying just send and she and hired help will wrap.
Yes it's so cheap for domestic help there .
One reason they stayed ...BUT she will change or shift my efforts ,if she does it.
Now I have to have energy to either sleep a couple hours ,take pain pill, and wrap and box as much as can , before heat.....
Then found out ,against specific request, several boxes have been tossed while I was to sick to notice..... This is for triplets and no it's not just 2 thing's each.. I am a giver..
(I've been so sick that several items already are not going to even out, by size etc.)
I need God to help me...not just with this,,he knows my heart......I can't stand the FACT that know matter what I do this year, there is NO WAY I'll see them. MY HEART HURTS SOOOOOO BAD.
I know this will sounds silly to most ,but it is really huge to me...
It's just when it came down to the wire ,it reminded me of just how little I can do.....
Prayer for healing, strength, peace, to let go and let God.and for the girls ,at this young age , not forget me and our deep heart connection. What I need to learn and to get meds , like we all need, TO get well
Thanks , sorry it just is hard to let go of so much in life already.......
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glm1111
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nonna,
Stay connected with the girls via skype, cards, B'day, xmas gits etc and phone. I didn't see my granchildren for 7 heartbreaking years, but stayed connected in many ways. We also had formed a strong bond when I saw them in their younger yrs.
When I finally got to see them this past christmas, they couldn't get enough of me and want to come and spend time with me. I feel your pain first hand.
I finally realized that I couldn't stay in the pain 24/7. so as soon as the heartache started, I distracted myself with something else or recited a prayer or mantra. We have the power to choose our thoughts.
I know it's not easy, but you can do it. I walk a lot and distracted myself that way. YOU WILL GET THOUGH THIS!! It will make you a stronger person.
Gael
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linky123
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I'm so sorry to hear about this. Prayers sent your way.
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sammy
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Hugs Nonna,
One thing that I remember from being a child, the contents of the present were not as important as it was to simply receive A present.
Receiving one present meant that that one person loved and remembered me. It was special because my sister and I grew up pretty poor. We were not given many gifts.
I also grew up "far away" from both of my grandparents. Yet I loved them dearly. I cherished the rare times that I got to see them.
Nonna, it sounds like you are the most loving grandmother that could ever be. Those girls are not going to stop loving you if your presents show up a little different than you had originally planned.
You're sending them with love and the girls are going to feel that when they see the boxes and open with excitement. Remember, it's not always what's in the boxes. What's important is the heart that sent them.
Your heart is good.
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nonna05
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Thank you..I'm trying so hard to let my body catch up a bit ,,,,
Then I will try, that's all I can do..
I pray God just gives me the strength and clear thinking to pull it together. . Hope I can get some tape and a couple boxes.. Air conditioner fixed... Thank you for your kind thoughts and words..... I will listen to scripture for a bit from Computer, and ear plugs....
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So sorry for all your emotional pain. It certainly does not help matters at all. Children's heart are so pure. They know you love them and will always have a special place for you in their hearts. Do you have a person in your life that can just listen. Is there a priest or preacher you could connect with? It is important you find someone to help you get throught this rough time. If not, I know people here are kind and can support you.
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