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I really hate sounding so "woo as me" but... I've reached my limit here and don't know where to turn, maybe I just need to rant and vent. I lost my Mother 3 yrs ago to ovarian cancer and they thru me into worse depression and anxiety along with my then undiagnosed Lyme. Less than a yr. later I had an enlarging growth in my ovary, had a full hysterectomy and immediately full blown menopause at 44 yrs old. My Father has had Alzheimers for about 10 yrs now and until recently was able to live in the house him and my Mother shared. My Father had a brain bleed that led to an auto accident that fortunately nobody but him was envolved in. He was hospitalized for a short time and is not able to live on his own any longer. I am basically his only family, and my Husband and our eleven yr old Son. He has been living with us for about 3 months now and I am a witts end. I love him but he is driving my family and myself crazy. I don't feel like I'm mentally capable with my neuro chronic Lyme to handle all the decisions and care necessary here now in my life. I'm distraught. He is a Veteran but a peacetime veteran and not injured at war so he does not qualify for VA Resthome. He only has Medicare and I've tried three times submitting paperwork to get him medicaid and am too frustrated to try again. As it is... I've missed the deadline now for getting his uncovered medical bills covered. I am now trying to sell his home and know that clearing out that house is one of my biggest stressors that I can't handle. My Mothers things are everywhere in that house and don't know how I'm suposed to part with things. I don't want to commit suicide, but once again face those thoughts of how overwhelming everything is... I just can't handle it. I live for my Husband and Son only... and now with my Lyme and my Dad, I feel like they have such a burden with us. Please don't worry, I'm not going to do anything to hurt myself or someone else, I am just so totally overwhelmed.
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You have more than a full plate. It's so hard to just cope with the lyme symptoms alone and when we have all these other stresses it makes it near impossible to cope at times. You're not alone dear friend...I've felt this way a lot lately too. Hang in there and try to take care of YOU first.
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linky123
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Your plate is not only full; it is overflowing.
Good advice about the assisted living. There is financial assistance for veterans at some facilities. You might want to look into that.
We looked into it for my uncle, but he didn't qualify for some reason, I can't remember why.
Will keep you in our prayers.
Take care and God bless.
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