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I have been sick for 14 years now (70% of my life) and got diagnosed started treatment two years ago. I don't feel like things are getting better, and I feel like more and more things are being taken from me.
The last thing I have is my education and career goals, but that is slipping through my fingers. Against medical and familial advice, I have not quit school or cut back. I am in college and have a perfect GPA and am set to apply for nursing school in a few days...
However, I am getting to a point where I cannot take care of myself or keep up with classes-although in my mind, if I push myself hard enough, it will work.
Taking a break from school would not be a 'fun little vacation' like everyone is trying to tell me. I don't want free time in which I will think about how bad I feel. If I stop, I'll have to think about how my life is shattered, and I'd rather be productive in this turbulent time.
A component of this is obsessive tendencies--I'll do school work in the hospital, have demanded to leave the hospital to take a test, gone to class before surgeries,ect. However, I have had specific career goals since I was in preschool. I am passionate about it, and taking off would be miserable. I enjoy everything about it (besides being sick and working simultaneously.
I just can't stop. I wish I didn't care. My life would be easier if I wasn't so stubborn.
Thanks for listening.
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Not resting when tired is very BAD. It is one of the worst things. I have thrown myself into many flare ups that way over the past 23 years.
REST WHEN TIRED. Please! I went through Grad School with this illness. It took a little longer for me than others, but I did it. It really isn't worth it to make yourself non-functional.
I hope you can modify
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dbpei
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If you have the support of your family, is there any way you could apply for a part time program in nursing? If not, could you take one or two classes at a time that could eventually be applied to the nursing curriculum?
This would allow you to pursue something you are passionate about, while having some down time to rest and heal.
I admire your drive and think we all need to have things that we enjoy in life to distract us from this horrible illness and to provide us with positive, healing energy. But by putting too much pressure on yourself and not allowing yourself to get proper rest and down time, you will not get well.
Are you happy with your treatment? It might be a good time to look into an alternative treatment or a new LLMD if you are not getting better.
Have you been to any support groups in your area? Sometimes you can find out about other LLMD's or even good therapists or social workers who understand this illness who can offer you some support and guidance.
Keep the faith. You will have so much to offer others once you are well.
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Check out the current parasite thread. Many are getting well after treating this infection. I did after 30 yrs of being misdiagnosed. Parasites/worms are the most overlooked co-infection of Lyme. Google parasite symptoms.
Gael
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Thanks everyone for listening and your kind suggestions. I feel a little more refreshed today (mentally).
Gael, I have started to address parasites since my metamtrix test back positive. I started with three days and took a break. I have intense GI problems, namely pain, and it really exacerbated it.
I do plan on getting back on parasite treatment soon, but for now, I'm letting the fire simmer down.
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