Annie C
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The rages usually come over me in early evening. I live alone. I'm angry because of the fact I can't cook real meals. And I'm watching. My second cat die from diabetes. Last yr my Mom died in May. Them a close friend died in Sept.
then in Dec I had to put down my sweet 12 yr old feline Nellie. And now my Silver Blue Male named Saber is dying from the same. Diabetes how can this be happening. They were all I had. I've been told to get a new kitten.
Saber will come and tell me in his way that I was going to have a seizure. He's 13. And my other cat Nellie is all Saber knew. He's been in depression and getting worse. Which probably caused the diabetes.
Now I'll really be alone. Last month I had to pay $220.00 to find out he's dying too. And I paid my auto insurance for 6 mo. So that leaves me $400.00 short on rent, which is $450.00 I'm not sure what's going to happen.
Oh I might drive my car 3 times a month. For some reason things in my life has Never been this bad.
Geez Duh Rage is a good answer. Last night I kept slamming kitchen cupboards and swearing over and over at least 30 times at a time. I was hungry couldn't cook anything. Rage is rage. I'm facing another day of the same tomorrow. I'm scared.
I've been coming here since 2000. And for all the new people stay here. I've gone through traumas and serious family issues due to everything combined. I'm not on Abx for 3 months and I'm getting worse by the day.
Thanks for letting me get this out. Better out than in.
I'm open for any ideas. I've used all mine.
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linky123
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You are perfectly justified to feel angry with all you have been through.
It sounds like a really tough time for you and I think most of us out here certainly understand.
Is there a lyme support group in your area?
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Keebler
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- I think it is healthy and actually appropriate response to feel an intensity of anger. The thing is that we try to control and then it can sneak up on us.
You are also grieving, and a broken heart is a very real element.
ADRENAL SUPPORT and FISH OIL are really important, too. Sometimes, fish oil can change that anger trigger in just a week (worked for some NYC cab drivers in an experiment).
If the brain is frazzled, it just has to go right to anger as it can't "find its way" to the other options.
So, rather than slam cabinet doors (or whatever else might get in your way - and some break hard objects on purpose & I'm not so sure that's good for anyone).
I wonder if you can take up soft clay molding or something that will have your body into it.
When I used to be able to swim, that was great. If I had a hard day, I could pound the water the freestyle.
Maybe some toxin free paints and get into hand painting? Darts? Basically, MOVE the energy on out of your body. Music can help. Singing, too.
I've been just too tired to get into anger - my energy just won't let me go there! -
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MADDOG
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Hi Annie Sorry to hear about the cats!! They can be cool at times. I had a neighbor who had a cat that fetched paper wads.
The rage is part of the lyme. Rage has caused me to have the worst summer of my life.
Rage at the wrong person and you can get snuffed out.Another cause of lyme deaths ,I now realise!!
I wonder how many Lyme people have been killed from yelling at people?????
Well hang in there !!!!
MADDOG
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I totally get the Lyme rage thing. Once the rage hit me as I was making coffee because the filter didn't fit perfectly into the coffee pot so I smashed the coffee pot about 15 times on my tile kitchen counter. Yes, the coffee pot was made of very fragile glass. The glass went EVERYWHERE! And when I tried to clean it up and realized how completely impossible it was because it had shattered into a zillion little pieces all over my kitchen, I collapsed into a puddle of tears on the kitchen floor. WTH??!! All because the filter was crooked?? I told my husband the coffeepot just shattered when I was putting it away, I was so embarrassed. I couldn't say the truth! He swore to never purchase another item from that company again.
You have suffered tremendous loss. Allow yourself the space to be angry, sad, full of rage, confused, whatever. I am terribly sorry that all of this has happened to your loved ones. I second the idea of a support group. It really is tremendous to meet people who deal with the same struggles.
And it's ok to slam those cupboards! Just be careful not to slam your fingers in them! Posts: 427 | From Pacific Northwest | Registered: Oct 2010
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LisaK
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annie, hang in.
about insurance, they might have a reduced price for less driving, try asking . I did and got money taken off.
I used to rage al the time. now I see it in other people who also have lyme sx.
they look like they wanna kill me!!!
I am raging today(and yesterday)because my computer broke and I am using my MIL old lap top. it is a terrible computer and I am so M A D.
I feel like doing something drastic to get money to buy my own. I got so mad at everything last night that I wanted to shave my head and almost did! but I ended up stopping myself and cut some inches off instead.
I still wanna shave it though.
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