LisaK
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ugh. I really hate life lately. someone please tell me it's worth it!!!
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do you know what kind and what stage? some are treatable and have very good recovery.
sorry to hear this. i'll be praying for you and your mom.
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LisaK, I am so sorry you and your family are going through this right now. I will be saying a prayer for you all.
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LisaK
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it's just that my FIL just died, I am on new tx for new tick, and my life just sucks.
my mom has Splenic marginal zone lymphoma.
she probably is going to be OK with it they told her since it is a slow, very managable cancer.
I know a little about it because I told her last year she had the sx for it, but also that she prob has tick diseases , and now I am wondering if tick disease can make this havoc that causes this cancer?
She lives hours away and came here because we have a good cancer place . I htought she was staying at my house tonight and my interfering sister that took her to apt. just now took her away to stay at her house. I had a lovely dinner planned and was looking forward to spending theday with my mom. now I am so sad on top of sad with my death grief, my own sick grief, and even my money grief... I reall ywanted someone to talk to and be with today.
now I am alone again, like always.
I hate everyone right now. (not really hate, but you know.....)
maybe they think they are helping by leaving me alone, but they didn't ask. they just go. so unfair.
whatever.
I am so tired of all the crap.
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I'm so sorry, Lisa. I hope she will have the best of care and that you will find ways to cope. Life has never been fair, but it seems to get worse the older we get!!
Keep us posted. I'll keep her in my prayers.
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Lisa,
Sorry to hear this news. She and you are in my prayers.
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lpkayak
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Sorry about your mom and all the rest. You are dealing with an awful lot and day to day you already have a full plate.
Im glad your moms cancer is ine that is more manageable. And glad you are gettung treated for recent bite
Could you talk to your mom in private and tell her you really want some alone time with her?
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lpkayak
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Sorry about your mom and all the rest. You are dealing with an awful lot and day to day you already have a full plate.
Im glad your moms cancer is ine that is more manageable. And glad you are gettung treated for recent bite
Could you talk to your mom in private and tell her you really want some alone time with her?
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Aw Lisa, that sucks. I know how it is, to have everything seemingly fall on you at once. No, not saying I know how YOU feel -- I can't, since I'm not you, living your life -- but I know I've been through many crappy times in my life when I had one disaster after another come along;
car wrecks and resulting injuries, sick kids, divorce, depression, deaths in family, backstabbed by "friends", job loss, loss of a home....the dirty laundry list goes on and on....yuck.
Hang in there and you WILL get through this. I'm praying for you and your mom.
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LisaK
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Thanks everyone. on top of it all yesterday I had such head pressure and I couldn't do a thing. I cannot stand feeling useless. maybe it was a godsend that my sister took my mom away because she is extremely high maintenance. and with my head hurting I was kind of useless.
I feel bad because I snapped at my sister and told her I was upset that no one cares about me. she told me to stop thinking everyone is (something) because of my illness. I can't remember exact words. she called me a viper. I was attacking her, so maybe I deserve that, but she cannot relate one bit as she has never been so sick her life stopped.
I feel bad now today that I acted the way I did, but I was so sad and upset and later I found out that same sister told my one daughter that grandmom had cancer which I thought was WRONG of her to do because I wanted to tell the kids.
I cried and cried , but I have been holding in my tears over my FIL death the last couple weeks so I guess it needed to come out.
now my mom is going home. my dad is freaking out- all he heard was "lymphoma" and went hysterical. he is getting his toe cut off next week (hammer toe) and I am sure this was all he needed to hear. my mom has plans to come back here for treatment - stay for the 5 weeks they say it will take. I am not sure how this will be if my dad will be left with no one to care for him and his recovery! why did they move so far???
and you are right Lymetoo- the older we get, the more..... ugh . I really don't like this. I always felt God made me superstrong, but the last couple years I am really being tested to the last thread.
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LisaK
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I know other people have it much worse than I do. I realize this. I just feel so out of control and that really freaks me out. I think the death of my FIL has me very stressed and then now I am breaking down.
thanks for all your thoughts and prayers. thank you
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Hi Lisa - sorry to read this. You know, you can do a search here for the lengthy reportback from the 11-day series called Quest for the Cures continues in General Support - 50-plus doctors/scientists/survivors testifying on what works to fight back against cancer. Many have successfully survived for a long time after their cancer dx.
Takes time to read through it - you can take notes about what appeals to you - I bet you could even print it out for your mom to read through if she would be interested.
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LisaK
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now my dad is so upset. all he heard was "lymphoma" and that was all he could hear. he was suposed to get his hammer toe removed this week but now is putting it off so my mom can start her treatment next week. I feel so bad for him to endure his pain like that indefinitely. poor old man.
maybe this will be the catalyst he needed to push him to move back to where all his loving children live!!!!
WHY CAN"T THEY LIVE CLOSER! no one there to care for them. all 6 kids live up this way. now my mom has to come for 5 weeks to get tx here. GOd , please let this be a reason for my dad to move. family is so important
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LisaK
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my mom goes for her first treatment today.
I found out that they wouldn't do a splenectomy because of her health and low body weight. he spleen is very large and they are concerned about it rupturing.
my poor mom. if you could keep her in your thoughts and prayers I would appreciate that very much.
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I'm sending you one of these.........
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LisaK
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thanks ak...
ugh . my poor frail old mama had a reaction withing 5 minutes . she had drenching sweats and all her clothes were soaked and she had to lay in them the entire time all wet and shivering. and the IV came out of her arm because the tape wouldn't stick because of the drenching.
it took over 2 extra hours too because of that reaction and the place running late.
I hope she will get thruogh this
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