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Can I ask a favor, can you guys please pray for me? I'm in a very dark place now. Worried about so much in my life and Lyme is only just one of them.
This fear of the unknown is absolutely the worst. I just want a normal happy life and feel like I'm trapped.
Physically and mentally I'm in so much pain. I never thought it would get this bad.
Thanks guys π
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Of course - I pray daily for all those who are ill and suffering.
I am very sorry you have to deal with so much along with your own illness. Stress can cause Lyme to flare and get worse! I completely understand and it's ok to feel badly - you've been through so much already!
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"When you are in deep water, trust the One Who walked on it!"
"Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand (Isaiah 41:10).β
Affirmations for you:
"I will not live in chaos; God is my calm.
I will not fear the storms: God is my shelter.
I will not live in panic; God is my peace."
"God never sends you into a situation all alone. God goes before you. He stands beside you.
He walks behind you. Whatever situation you have right now, Be confident God is with you!"
"Note to self: God already knows the outcome of all I am dealing with. Things may be looming large, but my God is bigger than anything I face.
The battle has already been won and the victory is mine. I will be at peace, because He is in control."
"Note to self: I may not have control over my circumstances, but I can choose how I will react to whatever I face. Today I choose to focus on God and with His help, I will not let anyone or anything steal my peace."
"Note to self: God is in control. Nothing that has happened has taken Him by surprise. He doesn't have to react or come up with a plan.
He already has a plan...it is not only a good plan, it's the best plan there can possibly be to work things together for good and to redeem what the enemy has meant for harm."
FYI - I found the "Notes to Self" in a book by Debbie Kay called, "Prayers for the Brokenhearted".
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I don't see my LLMD till 9/28. Scared to even go who knows what she'll say.
She wanted redo my igenex tests. Worried about $. If it's still Bartonella will I need a picc line at this point? How the **** can I afford that?
There's a LLMD right down the street from my job that I was told I should seek out. Her first pt appt cost is $1,000 and she'd prob would want to do her own igenex and lab testing.
I'm doing a mold and heavy metal urine test this weekend. Together it's $400.
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A big one? Having a family. I'm 36.5 and single.
Yes I'm scared to death of having a sick child from this.
I'm torn on what I want.
Went to a store last weekend to pick up a birthday present. The store just opened so not many ppl inside and I was in no rush. Walked to the nursery/baby department and felt so happy and in awww, then my eyes filled up.
I've been in treatment 2.5 years now only feeling worse.
Never felt so defeated, depressed, anxious or scared in my life.
What is all of this? That's not all of it either. Scared about $, work (losing job), this pandemic, treatment.
I can't look forward to anything. A new month, a new season used to make me happy. Now it only brings more fear and uneasiness.
I was not like this 3 years ago.
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