Melanie Reber
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For the last 6 months, I have been trying so desperately to put my puzzle back together.
Some people hate working on puzzles, it just feels too overwhelming, or they are just too impatient, or they feel like it is a waste of time and they would rather being doing, well, just about anything else.
However, I happen to be in the category of those who love puzzles. I love the anticipation of opening the box and I love the smell of what is inside. I find myself getting lost in the process of turning over every piece, separating them into little piles of color and design. I am infatuated with finding all the edges and searching for like pieces to fit together. It gives me SUCH a sense of satisfaction, that I actually, utter ‘AH HA!’ when I find matches. And, when it is finally all assembled, I always really hate taking it apart again, but I do, only to put it back together later on.
Each re-assembly becomes a little bit easier, because I remember the colors, designs, and special edges that went together before, and the second time, even though it goes a lot faster… it is no less satisfying to me.
This is the process that I have been experiencing for so many years now (that I cannot even truthfully remember now how many times); my body falling to pieces only to be put partially back together by various physicians. Each physician specializing in parts of my body’s issues, but not all. Each recognizing their pieces rather quickly, but not so certain of the others that they really have no direct experience with… leaving me to turn to yet another physician, who recognizes other pieces of the puzzle…
and the process goes on and on.
I am so incredibly weary of physicians (and so many others), that ONLY focus on parts of me and dismiss the other parts of me as if they really did not matter. As if they are not connected. As if I could somehow ever be complete without EVERY piece discovered and assembled.
THIS, has become my job now, as it has always been really… to try to figure out what symptoms belong to what diseases. And to try and figure out how to stop their progression long enough to find out what other diseases have been hiding in the corners (or if you have a cat, like I do, who likes to help, those pieces may actually be under the table or in the floor vent, or simply lost for good).
So, this time around, I am adopting a different approach, one that should have been taken from the beginning. I do have faith that it is working (I have to really) because I am now actually finding some of my lost pieces. And every day and ever so slowly, as I begin to recognize them from long ago, and begin to assemble them back into the larger picture of my medical history… my puzzle is at last starting to come fully together.
It has taken a very long time (actually, my entire life)… but I will never stop searching… because, keep in mind, I am in the select group that actually likes putting puzzles together.
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MannaMe
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I love your description here of the puzzle!
I often said my Hubby was a 1000 piece puzzle with the same picture printed on both sides of the pieces.
I get it! I get it!
I also love putting puzzles together.
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map1131
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I've been puzzle piece searching since '99. I too never gave up or accepted there was some huge pieces missing.
Finally in '18 I found a Naturopath who uses Quantum Biofeedback, is a rife pro and things started making sense. I have owned a rife machine and treated (?) since '03.
Only thing about treatment with any protocol....you have to know who the bad guys are. And there's a long drawn out process to eliminate bad guys, one by one.
Many of these bad guys are more persistent than Lyme, Bart, babesia. The 4 years plus that I did abx was detrimental to my purpose and just opened the door for a very long list of more bad guys to thrive.
But that was my journey and I had to live through it to understand it all. I've accepted that I will have to focus and stay the course for the rest of my life.
I have a list of chronic viruses that mock Lyme & co sx. I have parasites & amoebas that mock Lyme & co sx. Worst of all I have many funguses, candida and molds that mock Lyme & co sx.
There are still puzzle pieces missing, but one thing I've learned is patience. I've gotten really good at recognizing the bad guys as they raise their ugly head.
Pam
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